Yes,deciding if I should be bold or not because I'm going to be laughed at if I do or I'll embarrass myself. I let my thoughts control me and sometimes I don't let people see my full potential. I know I have to put myself out there. It's just so hard! But I have to think What if someone needs what I have but they don't know because I don't let it out. I know I have to be myself.
Then theres forte and there's being shy. I can be the most shy person in this whole world, I confess that I have embarrased myself. Sometimes people confuse my shyness with my forte, public speaking is not my forte, words don't come out of my mouth, my palms start to sweat, my face turns red it's horrible. Don't throw me to the wolves! I know I have to be more confident on public speaking and work on it but I don't like it when people force me to do that or put me on the spot once again is no my forte.
People can take advantage of you if you are shy because they know you won't say anything towards the unfairness that you are experiencing. One of my co-workers who has a heart of gold and carry such a beautiful soul, she is also shy and people tend to be unfair with her because sometimes she is so afraid of comfrontation. I get so fired up when I see it happens. I'ts so messed up! is like the riddle that say the "strong like to prey on the weak." It's okay for me to be shy but I don't let unfairness cross me, I need to address it.
I dread shyness when it comes to meet people, oh my God! it's just so frustrating You just want to talk to them but there's the barrier. The one that won't let say Hi because you are too afraid of looking ridiculous. I've been there so many times, for friends its just so easy say hi and engage into a conversation with a group of people and you are there thinking how they do that?I may not talk but I notice. Thats why I like to be shy I can intensively notice the slightest difference or action on someone or something. Some people say thati concepted as being judgemental but I don't think is like that. right?
Being shy in this world is brutal, you get looked upon, taken advantage of but you know what? we are special. I love seeing shy people coming out of their precious little shell and people end up being amazed by their qualities and talents. We have so much to offer, we are just not comfortable yet, but the day... The day we rise up and get out of our comfort zone we can do pretty amazing things and leave people all confused asking themselves "Where this come from?" it was inside us sleeping but it decided to wake up.
