We all put on a front that claims we are OK with not receiving love or social interaction, whether it is from friends, family, or a potential lover. The truth is, of course, we all do. What builds any relationship is honesty but most people on this earth don't know what that means to a person.

They would rather hide behind pixels rather than face you and your situation.

We aren't in high school anymore. We are all young adults trying to figure out life and it's hard when we are told to read people's body language in order to really understand them and their character. It is true, learning body language is important but so are the words coming out of your mouth.

I grew up without any friends because I wasn't the best person to be around. Now, I've matured and I am happier, but I would like to share it with someone.

I'm not just talking about lovers.

My social circle is already limited but I'm tired of waiting for people to ask me to hang out because if I wait, it'll never happen, but if I am always the one asking someone to hang out, then I feel like I'm clingy. I crave social situations now more than ever because I've always been a hermit. I'm learning to not be clingy and needy because I feel like I am.

With that being said, I'm trying to decrease my phone use and trying to connect with reality. I haven't taken care of myself mentally lately so I am starting to meditate and running on the treadmill in the mornings.

I have crushes, just like anyone else, and I always wondered when they would answer back and I always try to read too much into the message and their tone.

I should stop because it's getting into my head that maybe I'm not good enough. I definitely am.

I should learn how to make a decent conversation with strangers as well such as bartenders or anyone I interact with. I've always closed myself off to strangers and acquaintances because it's like, I'm not sure what to say to you. Ever since I've taken a job at Marc's as a cashier, it's easier for me to look into people's eyes, make some conversation with co-workers and even with the managers.

It's the little things while being a cashier that I really enjoy. I enjoy smiling at people and asking how they are, sometimes people ask just for the sake of asking but some days, I really want to know.

My head is always buried on my laptop or phone, but I should try reading more, watching more Netflix, or writing even more just so I don't have to worry about my phone. It's really hard because I've always been on my phone 24/7 so decreasing the usage of it is something I am getting used to.

If you have someone you really want to talk to but they don't seem to be giving you the same respect, it's their choice to not answer you. People choose to ignore your messages so you forget about them until they seem to talk to you in person. I'm done trying to talk to people who won't hold a conversation.

Also, if you make plans with somebody and they flake on you last minute because they say they are busy, they probably are or they just don't want to hang with you.

If you don't want to hang with somebody then tell them. If you know someone likes you but you either lead them on or try to ignore them, you should say you are not interested. Playing with people's emotions can cause trouble because you never know what people are capable of. It could lead to violence or a mental breakthrough.

Be upfront with somebody is the best way to gain their respect or get them to dislike you less.