The Girl With Long Bangs And Black Eyeliner

The Girl With Long Bangs And Black Eyeliner

We all have certain things about ourselves that make us confident. But it's important to remember that confidence is something that evolves and changes over time. Therefore, the things that give us confidence should rightfully adapt with time as well.

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I've hidden behind the dark veil of my bangs for almost 7 years now. I went from side bangs to straight bangs, then back to side bangs again. For me, bangs hid some of my insecurities: my uncurved, flatter forehead, my once large-and-in-charge eyebrows that I never knew how to properly groom. Bangs made me feel more comfortable in the skin I used to so despise-- the skin that I used to think was not so beautiful.

Around the time I got bangs, I started to wear makeup as well. At first, it was just a dark line above my eyelash line. Then, in eighth grade, I started wearing a powder foundation my friend gave me. I didn't know the shade was two shades too dark-- I just liked that it covered up my skin "blemishes" such as my freckles (which I hated at the time). While the powder was off and on, the eyeliner was a daily occurrence that only evolved. It grew in girth, length, and eventually spread to my lower lash line. I remember that one night in eighth grade when I was playing around with my (minimal) makeup and put a thin line of eyeliner on my lower waterline. I remember thinking to myself, "Wow, I actually don't look bad," which was the first time I thought this in a while.

So, as the eyeliner grew (and I mean it grew, at one point I was a full-on raccoon), the bangs grew with it. From eighth grade until around tenth grade, I had long, ominous bangs that basically touched my eyelashes. I also wore dark eyeliner on my waterline, and below and above my lash line. I was told at one point by some friends that, before they met me, they thought I was emo. This was a sort of wakeup call to me since I didn't want people to get the wrong impression (no shame against the emo look, it just wasn't what I was going for). So, around 11th grade, I grew my bangs into side bangs. It was a new look, and I liked it. I had initially gone from side bangs to full bangs because I was insecure about my forehead, but after a few years of maturing, I had the confidence to show half (more like ¼) of my forehead. And yes, I repped the eyeliner every day, all day-- I still didn't feel confident without it.

In senior year, I still had the side bangs, but I started wearing less eyeliner. I also went from the "raccoon look" to the "cat-eye" look (AKA the infamous winged eyeliner). Essentially, my eyeliner stopped growing vertically and started growing horizontally. I also started a thing where I'd go "makeup-less" once a week (or in other words, I still wore foundation and top waterline but didn't do my winged eyeliner). On this one day, I would always feel fresher than ever-- I could wipe my eyes without fearing I'd smudge the line, and I wouldn't have to reapply the liner halfway through the day to make it dark and defined again. The catch was, I felt 10x less confident. Because of this, I went from normally pretty extroverted Emma to introverted Emma: I hung in the library more these days, talked less with people outside my friend circle, volunteered less in class, and so on. But it was still a step towards fully accepting my bare face.

When college first started, I still repped the same look: a lot of eyeliner with a lot of bangs on the side. But as the year progressed, there became more and more days where I wouldn't have time to put on eyeliner in the morning, or I'd have a short day and would be in my dorm most of the time (so why put in the effort in doing my makeup?). In addition, I no longer had the leisure of being 2 minutes away from my hair salon, which I would normally visit every 2 weeks for a quick bang trim (yes, I was now 22 minutes away, but it was nevertheless inconvenient). So, my bangs began to grow; they grew and grew, to the point where I started considering growing them out. This was the first time this thought crossed my mind in 7 years. I questioned my friends, family, and random acquaintances about this proposition, I was so unsure about it. I knew I hated my forehead, especially the feeling I'd get when someone would lift up my bangs, or I would do so myself and look in the mirror. I didn't like that version of myself. I'd see (what I thought was) a less-attractive girl and think, "Who is she?". Despite the many hesitations, I decided to grow them out. I felt comfortable in this decision, as if I didn't like the look, I could always cut my hair and get side bangs again.

I write this wearing no eyeliner, and showing around ¾ of my forehead, with my grown out side bangs tucked behind my ears. I want to say that I still feel beautiful, since I do, but I also feel hesitant, a bit reluctant… If I wasn't in the decent mental place I'm proud to say I am in now, I don't think I would have the confidence to rep the little-to-no bangs look. In addition, these days I probably only do my makeup and put on the "wing" around 1-2 times a week. The other 5-6 days I go for the natural, not too heavy look: a bit of foundation, eyebrow filler (due to my sparse brows) and upper waterline, all just so I don't look dead and sleep deprived (as I usually am).

My bangs and black eyeliner have been with me through it all-- they've seen me at my darkest points and my highest. But I'm also happy and excited to be giving my forehead a glimpse of the sunlight for the first time in (what feels like) forever. It feels new and fresh, just like the way I'd feel on those days I don't wear eyeliner. Looking back to those days in eighth grade, where I couldn't picture myself having the confidence to leave the house without black raccoon-like eyeliner or my long bangs in my face, I'm happy to say I've come quite far. I still have a long way to go before I feel beautiful showing all fourths of my forehead or going out with a sincere fresh face. But still, I'd like to think that it's sometimes more important and meaningful taking a moment to look at the road traveled behind you rather than think about the dreaded road ahead.

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11 Things You Know To Be True If You Have A Big Booty

Yes, I know you like big butts and you cannot lie.
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Having a big butt has its ups and its downs. For example, I love being confident in my body and looking great in the clothes I wear, but finding clothes that actually fit is a problem. With everyone trying to look like a Kardashian, big butts are all the rage, but it's not always all that it's cracked up to be!

1. All bathing suit bottoms are cheeky.

I have to get a pair of bottoms two sizes bigger than I have to get a top. Even when I do that, the bottoms still look cheeky. Imagine what actual cheeky bottoms look like. *blushing emoji*

2. Shorts? Also cheeky.

I love a cute pair of short shorts, but no matter the size, they're just going to ride up. I'll be spending most of the time worrying about pulling my shorts down. Why can't I look cute and be comfortable????

3. Trying to squeeze through a tight area is nearly impossible.

Stomachs can be sucked in when it comes to squeezing through. You can't suck in your butt when your trying to get through. Most of the time, it's like a bull in a china shop that takes out everything and everyone in its path.

4. Shopping for jeans is a nightmare.

People complain that my jeans look painted on, but if I got them any bigger, they'd hang off of my waist. If they fit in the butt, they don't fit in the waist. And the fit in the thighs are a whole different story. You can't have it all.

5. When you finally do get that perfect pair of jeans, this happens.

All I have to say is, UGH!!!

6. THE WEDGIES.

Debatably the biggest con to having a big butt. I have to pick out a wedgie at least twelve times a day. The day I can find a pair of underwear or an outfit that doesn't get lost in my cheeks will be the day I can die happily.

7. People automatically assume you can dance.

Some girls with big butts know how to move them. I am not one of those girls. My butt size and my ability to dance are totally unrelated. I may look like I know how to move, but my lack of coordination and rhythm will tell you a different story.

8. Your butt is always used as a pillow.

I've come to terms with the fact that my butt doubles as a comfy lying place for people's heads. I'm glad that I can be of service.

9. Bodycon dresses are a blessing and a curse.

You definitely have the Kardashian look going on in a bodycon dress, which is a major plus. That is, until you try to bend over or lift your arms at all. Then, you give everyone in the room an all access pass to Flashville. Sorry to all the people who have seen parts of me they might not have wanted to when I've dropped my phone.

10. You know every word to songs about big butts.

From "Baby Got Back" to "Fat Bottomed Girls" to "Bootylicious," lyrics about big butts are so relatable. You can catch me rapping/singing every word when one of these songs come on.


11. How you feel knowing big butts are finally the trend...

My whole life, I wanted to be the skinny girl with the perfect body because that's what everyone thought was beautiful. I spent years hating my body, specifically my butt, because I wasn't shaped like the girls in the magazines. Finally, society accepts girls with bodies like mine and I couldn't be happier! But, what I've learned over the years is that all shapes and sizes are beautiful as long as I'm happy with myself.

It's a blessing and a curse (but mostly, a blessing). IF YOU GOT IT, FLAUNT IT!

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5 Inexpensive Websites For Summer Clothes

If you are looking to online shop for your summer closet, check out these stores.

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Summer is here and so is a whole new category of fashion; high waisted swimsuits, mom jeans, graphic tees, chunky sneakers, and many more styles that have become popularized in 2019. If you are trying to save some money while keeping up with the latest fashion trends, online shopping on the right platforms is a great way to get the most bang for your buck!

Listed are the five most cost-effective online stores that each have their advantages and disadvantages so you can spruce up your summer lookbook. The best way to get the most clothing items on these online stores for the cheapest is to search for promotion codes online and take advantage of any email sign up deals, student discounts, and general sales they are currently promoting.

1. Zaful

If you are looking for a very cheap option so you can put the most in your cart, Zaful is your best bet. This store is stocked with everything under the sun including swimsuits, tops, bottoms, jewelry, shoes, hats, and more starting at 4.99. Zaful offers 15% off of your first order as well as free shipping for orders over $49, so you can fill your cart with more items than you think you are paying for.

2. Nasty Gal

Nasty Gal is a great store for quality items that will live a very long life in your closet. Although the prices seem high at first glance, the online platform has constant deals occurring such as their current 50% off everything sale as well as their 60% off everything for students sale. Nasty Gal is a great brand to build your closet essentials due to the great condition and material of their clothing items.

3. Pretty Little Thing

Pretty Little Thing is a great online store to shop for summer events because of their beautiful dresses and tops. I recommend purchasing occasion wear from this brand because a lot of their loungewear and regular items are overpriced for what they are worth. In the sale section of Pretty Little Thing, you can find many dresses and dress pants for over 55% off. If you are looking for a few fancier outfits for summer occasions, check out the sale section of Pretty Little Thing to get some nice looks for cheap.

4. Misguided

Misguided is an online store that has a unique vibe in the clothing they sell that is worth a browse because of their eccentric and fun styles. The platform has recurring sales that range from 25 to 50 percent off, which allows you to get twice the amount that you pay for. If your style includes graphic t-shirts, oversized t-shirt dresses, and good quality loungewear, Misguided offers great quality items with low prices to spruce up your summer outfit aesthetic.

5. Boohoo

If you love rocking matching sets and co-ords, look no further that Boohoo for the best patterns, styles, and prices. Boohoo usually has a 50% off sale going on, which goes a long way when you can purchase a matching two-piece set for as low as $20. Although Boohoo sells beauty products and accessories, their sets and outfits are the best items to get your money's worth in quality and quantity.

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