I remember from an early age not being into hair, makeup, and getting mani/pedis. In fact, I nearly had a heart attack when I found out I had to get a manicure prior to my uncle's wedding. I was never interested in having make overs when all of my friends played in their moms' makeup, putting on eyeshadow, bright red lip stick and painting their nails.
Growing up, I didn't like stuff on my face. I didn't like to get my face painted at the yearly school carnival or to get it painted in my team colors for big ballgames and pep rallies. I didn't even want eye black on my face for softball games. It wasn't just makeup I didn't want on my face, it was everything. But, I also felt confident with a natural look, just me without any foundation, blush, mascara or lipstick.
Throughout high school and part of my freshman year in college, I envied girls who wore makeup. For them, getting ready was a big production with foundation, eyeliner, and some other stuff I still don't know about. The girls all got together to do their make-up and hair while all I did was shower and blow dry my hair.
During my second semester of college I decided I would start wearing makeup. Hoping it would give me a little bit of confidence that I sometimes lack when going out and meeting people.
Makeup gives me a large amount of confidence, but it also takes some away.
I hate having to worry that it will rub off if I touch my face. I don't like the feeling of sweating with it on, so I don't want to wear makeup to football games or to anything outside. I don't like having to change clothes with makeup on because there is a chance of getting it on my shirts. Then there are just times I feel like my makeup doesn't look good or that I am doing it wrong. So for me makeup is a double-edged sword. It gives me confidence but it can also cause a loss of confidence and anxiety while wearing it.
Although makeup gives me confidence, I feel more comfortable without it. As soon as I put it on I can't wait for the time to come when I can wash and clean my face. I don't wear it every day and find myself wearing it less and less as time goes by. I'm not here to bash anyone who wears makeup, if that is how you feel most comfortable you should wear it. If you feel more comfortable without it, don't wear it.
Society shouldn't make you feel like you have to wear makeup to be pretty. Society has made the young want to look old and the old want to look young. No one really wants to look like herself. Everyone wants to look flawless. Some people are born with it or some people bought it. Maybe society and the idea of what is beautiful needs to change.