I gave you my heart and that wasn’t enough. I gave you my time and that wasn’t enough. I did all that you asked bent backward, left and right, and that still wasn’t enough. I bought you things because I cared about you. I gave you your space when you asked me to. I put up with seeing you once a week. I stayed up late almost every night until I was exhausted, just so I could talk to you (if you even gave me that chance). I put you as a priority. I lost my self worth and let you take everything I did and was willing to do, for granted. I gave you everything and that wasn’t enough. In the end...I...wasn’t enough.
But that’s not true. Of course, I was not good enough, because no matter what I did or didn’t do, it would never suffice. That’s when I realized it was never me. This wasn’t my fault. To the person going through this, this isn’t YOUR fault.
Think of it like this. If you have a great teacher, and you excel on your exam, then that was a two-way street because you studied and in return had good lessons. If in turn, your teacher happened to teach poorly and you yourself studied the best you could on the exam but failed...there was nothing on your part that you could have done more. Why? Because you tried your best.
In other words, you tried your best in your relationship. You tried to be the best version of yourself and always be there for your loved one, but they could never do that for you. You noticed that it was always an effort that would never be received. You gave 100 percent and they gave you zero percent. That’s not how life works unless you allow it.
You shouldn’t feel like a burden. NEVER should that thought come across if your significant other truly accepts you. You shouldn’t be the next thing on their to-do list, meaning they should make you their priority as well. They should treat you like you DESERVE to be treated and support you in the best way that they can. Most of all, they need to show their love more through their actions and less through their words (not that the occasional compliments and I love you’s don’t count for anything).
It’s okay that you’re not together. Remember that in the end, true colors are always shown. You start to realize that you could never see yourself having a future with that person who took purposeful actions to tear you apart. Why would you allow yourself to be with someone like that? You wouldn’t. That’s my point. You just become so blind that you can’t see that you are starting to lose yourself.
Don’t let their actions dictate your worth because you are beautiful and important. Everyone deserves to feel that way. This is all clearly a problem that they have to resolve themselves, and you must keep yourself separated from the situation in trying to understand that. You will get through this, I PROMISE!
So keep calm, love yourself and stay happy.