Dear Former Friend,
It has been years since we talked. I have no idea where you are in life right now. I used to know everything about your life, from your relationships and personal life, to your bad hair days. Now, I don't even know when you buy a new pair of shoes. I am sad, frustrated, and hurt; no single emotion can exactly portray how I feel about this happening. How can you, who meant so much to me, now not be in my life at all?
Growing up we knew life would get harder; it is inevitable and completely unavoidable. Both of us are in school for our future careers, studying night after night, and I guess we just were not prepared enough in our friendship. You became less frequent in your updates; phone calls turned to texts every day, then to every week, then to none at all. Now, how do I know if you are happy with where you are in life? We always said we would know everything about each other. Now we know absolutely nothing. Why?
Here is why. We were not true friends in the first place. We acted like we were, treated each other like we were, and told other people we were. But if we really were best friends, we would not have lost touch. I have other friends that have not drifted away with the changes in life. They are true. You, on the other hand, went away as soon as times got tough. That is why we are no longer in contact. You would rather stay home and be “best friends” with the girl from high school that we both admittedly did not like than drive a few hours to visit someone who thought she was your best friend.
At one point in my life, I saw you as a bridesmaid in my wedding, a godmother to my future children, and a shoulder to always cry on. Now I see you as none of the above. All I see when I look at you is a stranger. Someone I know nothing about. Someone I would not even feel comfortable bringing into my life now. But I would not trade the years of friendship we had for anything, because they were a lot of fun. I will have those memories to share for years to come.
So here it is all on the line. I want to say I am sorry. I am sorry what we were is no longer there. I am sorry that whatever made you not care to come around anymore happened. I am sorry for not knowing who you are now. But I hope you know you should be sorry too.
Sincerely,
Me
