Last week I wrote an article announcing the fact that I scored an interview for a "Saturday Night Live" internship. This interview is coming up Aug. 24, and needless to say, I am going insane with anticipation and anxiety.
Over the past few days, I have been able to somewhat come to terms with the fact that I did indeed score an interview. Believe it or not, my initial reaction was denial. I could not believe the fact that it was happening, and I felt the need to tell everyone I knew, to ensure the fact that it was real. It wasn't until I announced my interview for the umpteenth time, however, that it settled in — I have this interview, and it is coming up fast, and I need to get it together.
Getting this internship would mean a huge jump in my career path. It would mean getting the job that essentially I have felt for the past few years that I was made for. It would mean working in the environment that I have been desperate to work in.
Part of it still doesn't feel real. But it is, and I have to absolutely crush this interview.
How am I going to do that? I have zero idea.
The past week, I have been stuck in the limbo that I believe many people feel stuck in when they are waiting for a pivotal moment in their future. I feel like my life is on hold until I sit down and conduct the interview to the best of my ability. It will be on hold until I know where this part of my life will lead me. It is unnerving for me to have my life on hold for this long. At this point, I just want to know what the outcome will be. I want to be able to announce one way or the other.
With the start of the week, I will begin to prepare for the interview in every which way possible. I know that ultimately, Wednesday, Aug. 24 will come quickly, and the interview will be over and done with. Yet as I wait moment by moment for the day to come, I cannot help but get increasingly anxious. It still feels like it will be an eternity before I get this interview.
Once more, my interview for the "Saturday Night Live" internship will be Aug. 24. And yes, I plan to keep everybody updated.
