To think that it's been over two years just doesn't seem real. You were so full of life and had a love for everyone, and for a while I couldn't understand how or why God would take you away from us. But I believe we are all put on this earth for a purpose to make an impact on the world, and change people's lives, and you did just that. In your 18 short years, you truly loved life and lived like there was no tomorrow. There wasn't a person you couldn't make laugh or smile. But to say that I don't wish you were still here with us would be a lie. How I wish I could give you one more hug, watch you play one more basketball game, or sing "Drops of Jupiter" with you one more time. You were my best friend.
You were one of those people who'd give the shirt off your back to anyone, didn't matter who they were or where they were from. You were the best listener. I can remember texting you about all of my problems, big or small and you always gave me the best advice. You supported me in my decision to move two hours away and still stayed my best friend even after I moved. I always wanted to be more like you, and I still do; I strive to be that loving, helpful, and caring person you were.
Not a day goes by that you’re not on my mind. I find myself wondering what you’re doing up there and what it must be like. I see your signs, and I hear your voice, and for that I’m grateful. Despite the old saying “it get easier with time,” I don’t find that entirely true. It never really gets easier, we just get used to it. It's different without you physically here with me, but I can hear you saying "cheer up bud" and I force a smile because you couldn't stand to see any of your friends upset. There aren’t enough words to describe how much I miss you, and if I could talk to you one more time, I’m not sure I’d say anything at all, I’d just hold you and never let you go.
I'd like to think you play basketball all day long up in heaven. I wish I could watch you play again, and cheer on number 30 just one last time. What I would give to go back and re-live those days, but it’s those memories that make me smile and make missing you a little more bearable. It's the little things in life that mean the most; the times we spent together that I'll never forget. I wish I could just go back and cherish every minute I had with you, because I didn't realize there would come a day when you weren't here with me.
Thank you for teaching me how to love life, for being a true friend, and for showing me how a positive attitude can impact everyone around you. And thank you for teaching me how to "Just plant your feet and hold your breath." It's funny how true those words are to us, especially now that you're gone. It's not my place to question God's timing, but I'm thankful for the impact you made on my life. I'm thankful for our friendship. I know one day we'll meet again in paradise.
I'll love you always.
