Dear Me,
Please don’t judge me. I have had a hard time adjusting to my new life at college, and I am still trying to figure out who I want to be. I have all these dreams and aspirations, but I do not know where to even begin to fulfill them all. I’m scared. I’m so scared of falling and never getting back up. So please don’t judge me.
Look back at to who I am now and remember how hard it all used to be. Remember how hard it was to wake up at the crack of dawn, dragging your butt out of bed to get to your 8am class. Remember all the mental walls you hit during those late nights trying to catch up in all your classes and then barely functioning the next day because of lack of sleep. Remember all the times you promised yourself that you would do better next time, and lied to yourself over and over again. Remember how that time began but, more importantly, how it ended.
I am learning, slowly, how to become you. My goals and aspirations are still there; I am just trying to figure out how I want to accomplish them. I started running again, and I’m hoping that these little victories will lead me to running my first marathon. Yoga has been a core part of my life recently, and it is teaching me to channel the good and rid of the bad. I am learning. My focus is shifting more toward my well-being, in hopes that if I can love myself so much that I can teach others to love themselves. I want to travel. I want to blog. I want to wake up every day with such a strong purpose of living that I feel like I can change the world. I want to be you.
You are beautiful, on the inside and out, and make all those around you beautiful. You are intelligent, using your knowledge and power to change the world. You are inspiring and dedicated, crashing through barriers like the strong woman you are. This is why I want to be you.
So please do not judge, because this journey that I am on is rocky and bumpy. There will be good days and there will be bad days, but I know that when I am truly happy that the hardest part of the journey will be over. I will make a million mistakes, and that's okay. It may take me years to find you. That’s okay too because every day I get is a blessing and I will utilize that time to better myself. I will find you, don’t you worry, and when I do, the world will be a beautiful place.
Love,
Me
