Dear You,
In my eyes, you were perfect
Remember when it all started. You were a quiet mysterious guy that kept drawing me in. You didn’t laugh very often, but when you did it was the most charming sound. The way you looked at me with your big brown eyes when I pretended I wasn’t looking made my heart skip a beat. And every time you put on your Ray-Ban sunglasses the butterflies in my stomach would flutter out of control. After a few months together I knew you could be the one for me.
But YOU couldn’t let me in
I told you about my past. Everything that I have ever been through. I trusted you. I let you in, but you didn’t let me. I don’t know what happened with your past but once I try to dig deeper into your heart and soul you pulled away. The deeper I went the farther you withdrew. Everything came tumbling down. You started withdrawing from our conversations, the way you cared for me, and the love that you once showed me.
It was you, not me
You told me you can’t treat me the way that I want. And you kept on telling me you are not the type of guy to love and care for someone. It’s saddening because you did care about me before. You told me I will find someone better because I didn’t deserve to be with someone like you.
I don’t hate you, but you broke my heart
We parted ways and I was torn. Maybe it was for the best. For months, I did not know what to do without you. My heart was broken. You did everything you possibly could to get me to hate you because you felt guilty for letting me go. I just want you to know, although you broke my heart I could never hate you. Maybe, I should hate you but I can’t. I have learned that in order to love someone else you have to love yourself.
Learn to love yourself
Trust yourself, your judgment, and your decisions. You are an amazing person inside and out, even if you don’t see it. When I looked at you I saw everything you didn’t see in yourself and that’s why I loved you. I hope one day you can see your self-worth because I saw it every day when we were together. Before you can love someone else just remember, you have to love yourself.
I’m moving on
This has made us stronger. I can’t wait until the day you find the love of your life and show her the love and passion you couldn’t give me. It will put a smile on my face because I know that you found the strength to find love not only in yourself, but towards her. For now, I am moving on. I have learned so much from our experience together and I am forever grateful.
