Dear Ex best friend,

I still think back on all of the sleepovers we had, spent laughing at something dumb and gossiping about all the boys we wanted to date. Now I sit in my apartment looking back on how I thought you were going to be my best friend forever. We were going to graduate, go to the same college, and you would be a bridesmaid in my wedding. Our kids were going to be best friends just like we were. We were going to be those two old ladies causing all the trouble in the nursing home. It was going to be you and me against the world, but that all changed.

Things between us changed. We became distant and all of sudden we had forgotten that each other existed. I thought you were going to be my best friend forever, and turns out, you were just going to be my best friend for a while.

I miss the way we used to spend hours laughing while eating junk food. I miss when we used to pass notes in class and hope that we wouldn’t get caught. I miss all the goofy photos we would take while dancing to some Hannah Montana song. I miss how we would talk about what the future holds. How we could go to the same college and be roommates. It was going to be great. Now we are miles apart and we don’t even speak anymore. Funny how things change in the blink of an eye.

Our friendship never had a distinct end. We just drifted. In a way I’m glad it didn’t end in a major fight: something we would regret. Things simply changed. You became you and I became me. It used to be me and you against the world and now it's just you and it's just me. I wonder what life would be like if we were still best friends. Would we be laughing over a glass of wine as we share the disasters of our tinder dates? Would we be helping each other study for some stupid class that we pay no attention to because we are too busy looking at funny quotes on Pinterest? We will never know.

I hope you are well. I hope that you can handle everything that life throws at you. I hope college is everything you imagined it to be. I hope you have a new best friend, someone who can be your partner in crime. I hope that you find that boy who makes you feel like you are the only girl in the world.

I wish things were different. I wish you were still my person. I wish it was still you and me ready to cause trouble any night of the week. But it’s not. Im glad you have found your new person. And I hope that you get everything you ever wanted, because girl, that’s what you deserve.

-love,

The girl who used to be your best friend