Dear 'Friend' Who Never Cared About Me,
I didn't realize it until we were no longer friends, but you never cared about me at all. All those times we talked, I never realized it was always about you. All those times I thought you actually cared about my problems, you were either not listening or waiting to use the information for your benefit. You always came to me when you needed help, and worried me for no reason.
You told me things I was uncomfortable with hearing, like that you thought of cheating on your boyfriend or that you were dating him because you were bored. I tried my best not to judge because you were my friend. I shared my textbooks, my life, my food, and my clothes with you, and now I can never get any of it back. From the beginning, I could tell something was a little off, but I try to see the good in people. I ignored it when people warned me about you because I was never one to judge a book by its cover. But, if I had known what you were capable of doing to me I would have walked away.
I didn't realize it until I decided you were no longer a part of my life, you never cared about me at all. You listened to me for months talk about the boy I was falling for hard, and all the things he said or did. You listened to my stories when he hurt me or didn't treat me the right way. You 'listened' to me when I told you that hanging out with him would be a bad idea. But I guess you didn't really listen because you did it anyway.
The worst of it all is that you lied about it, thinking I wouldn't find out. Of course, I did. Giving you the benefit of the doubt, I was going to wait to hear your side of the story. He got to me first. He told me about how you trash talked me and then offered him to spend the night with you. He declined, being the loyal friend that he is. It doesn't matter that I'm no longer falling for him, you lied to me, talked badly of me, and then tried to get with someone I once cared deeply for. I guess I would just never do that to anyone, and wouldn't think a friend would either.
I didn't realize it until I wrote this, you never cared about me at all. Real friends don't go out of their way to make friends feel bad. And you did, when you called me and told me you didn't regret going for him, and that you were still going to try. You used to manipulate me and made me feel terrible over things I couldn't even control. I'm better than that, and I make it a priority of mine to remove the toxic people from my life.
I didn't realize it until now, but I'm the type of friend I deserve. I would never hurt someone the way you did me. So as of now, we are no longer "friends," and I hope one day you will meet a friend who will make you understand what being a friend really means.
From,
A Friend
