Dear Exes,

It has been quite awhile hasn't it? No, I do not miss you. I just wanted to write this, to tell you- Thank you. You sucked, and you treated me terribly. You made me upset when you should have been supporting me. You treated me like an old toy, one that a young child would play with and put away when they got bored-- putting me back onto the shelf and trading me for a new one. You would use me, whenever you wanted to, whenever you felt like it.

I let you. I am not proud of it. I was a pushover. I felt as though I had to make you happy, and I put your interests before mine. I allowed you to talk about other girls because I didn't want to be "clingy." I never got mad at you. I wouldn't pick fights with you over little things. I would worry constantly; you would go days or even weeks without texting me back. You broke up with me in front of your friends and never talked to me again. I supported you, and I did everything I could to keep you happy. I never asked for much, and I let you be, most of the time. I didn't constantly text you because I knew giving you space was better than to bother you. I let you get angry with me when I should have fought back for myself. You made me think that you actually gave a sh*t about me, once upon a time. You treated me even worse after we were done.

It's over, and it's been over for a very long time. I don't want you to think that I care anymore because I don't. I don't check up to see what you've been up to because I'm focusing on my own life. I have changed so much in these past couple of years. I have learned more and more and grown into a different person. I'm not the same girl you knew, and I won't be that same girl, ever again. I'm glad. I'm ecstatic. I'm a whole new person because of my past experiences. Those times where I was ignored, mistreated, dejected- made me stronger. So much stronger. And I am proud of who I am. I don't regret having dated you. I don't hate you. I don't dislike you. I am grateful to have had my experiences, both good and bad because they taught me. They taught me how to understand people better, how to take a stand for how I really feel, how to communicate and stand up for myself. You made me realize that I was a huge pushover, and you made me into a girl that goes for what she wants, for what she aims and strives for. Because of you, I have learned that not everyone is who they may seem to be. Because of you, I have learned to keep my guard up at all times, and to not give in too easily. Because of you, I've realized how to love myself, respect my priorities, and put my interests before others'. I've learned how to walk away when I know someone is bad news for me, and I've learned that I should be better treated- not the way you treated me, like trash. Because of you- I am a stronger, braver person.

So, exes. Thank you. Thank you for the time you spent with me. Thank you for the good and bad memories, the experiences I will never forget. Thank you for showing me the worst of the worst, so that I can prep myself for the best. Thank you for showing me, that not everything works out, but that there is more to see out in the world.Thank you for teaching me that I deserve so much better. Thank you for showing me that I need to have more standards and fewer expectations. I'm grateful, because everything that has happened to me, has made me into who I am now. Thank you, because now I have a better grasp on how to respect myself and my priorities. This is my sweet goodbye to you. You knew me once upon a time, but just once. The independent life is not so bad.

xoxo,

The girl you never deserved