I have to start off by apologizing.
I am so sorry for all that I did to hurt you. I never meant to break you in the ways that I was scared of being broken into. I don’t mean to be the lingering thought you have before you go to sleep. I don't mean to be the villain in our "could've been" superhero story. Losing you was losing my best friend and a part of who I once was.
I hope you think of me and know that I'm thinking of you too. I think of you in the ways that the sand admires the seashells and the clouds admire the sky. I think of all of the things we've shared and how they are simply past endeavors that hold no relevance to your life now. I think of how our future would have been if I hadn’t been stupid enough to let you go.
I think of you in the corners of my mind, the darkest areas of my nights and on the brightest days. I think of you with nothing but admiration and hope for your future as we grow in our different ways. I think of all of the things we could've done together, the ways we could've blossomed into who we were meant to be together, the future we would've shared and the way that only you could make me feel.
I think of the overwhelming sadness I've caused not only you but me as well. I think of your family and the open arms that they had towards me and the way that I never felt as if I was excluded. When I think of home, I think of you.
I thank you for all that you did for me in the ways that I never recognized. I thank you for the beauty that you brought into my life and the amazing stories that I'll be able to share with my own children one day. I thank you for the memories that are worthy of reminiscing and will remain in my mind for the rest of my life. I thank you for the best years that I have experienced in my life so far. But most importantly, I thank you for teaching me how to love not only things and people, but myself.
They say that if you love something, let it go and if it comes back to you it was always yours... but we both can't wait for fate to push us back together. Maybe we'll stumble upon each other in the grocery store or an old washed up bar and talk about who we have become. Maybe we'll meet in another life where we have it all figured out. But right now, we will move on and change into the people we were meant to be without one another. I hope you know how much I care and love you and how some parts of me always will.
Maybe one day if the stars and the moon align, so will we. But for now, we'll find ourselves wandering down our own paths and the only bumps in the road are due to the weathering that we caused to it on our own.
