Well if there is anything I would like to say, it's that distance sucks. It is hard and grueling mentally, physically and emotionally. This relationship has tested me in ways that I have never thought I would ever be tested. The words ‘I miss you’ mean something completely different since I have started dating you. You have changed my perspective on love. You have shown me that the saying “Distance makes the heart grow fonder” is actually true.
You came into my life when I least expected. You walked into my life when I had given up on the idea of finding a guy. The idea of the passionate love had sadly left me, until you. You lit a flame deep inside of me. A flame that had been out for many years. One that none had rekindled but yet you managed to.
When you left me to go our separate ways I thought it was over. I thought that what we had was a ‘summer romance’ that everyone has in their life. I was okay with it. I had come to terms with it while thinking about the moments that we had shared. Then it hit me, that I didn’t want to lose you.I didn’t want to lose us. I cried tears of sorrow for what we had. In my mind, it was gone. How could this relationship actually work? Why would you choose me? A girl that is miles away who is in college planning to leave and go and explore the world, why in the world would you choose me? How could you? I thought it was over, until you called me. You made me smile. My tears in that moment were gone. I heard the voice that sounded like home. In that moment, I knew we were going to make this work. I didn’t know how, but we were going to.
The distance gets harder every day. It is hard to stay away from someone who is your best friend. I feel like I have missed moments with you because I can't physically be with you. You have missed moments where I wish you could see me being stupid and silly with my friends. There are times when I wish I could cuddle into your arms when I am stressed or want to cry and I can’t.
Then I remind myself this is all temporary. One day this distance won’t be the problem but it will be what made us stronger. Distance is only a number but love is a feeling and that feeling can carry for miles no matter where we are.
You will forever be the man that changed my life. No matter how far apart we are, we will always find each other in the end. We will always find our ways back to one another. This long distance relationship will never be easy but I choose you. I will always choose you. Distance is hard but our power as a couple is stronger. You will always be worth it, this relationship is worth it.
