Dear Guy I Used To Know,
At first, we were inseparable. Not only were we best friends, but the couple everyone hates because we were so close. The thing was, we weren't even a couple, I was just the girl you thought about dating but never took the step to make it a real thing. Was I just someone to pass the time? Or were there real intentions? You kept saying, “You know I have feelings for you,” but I never felt them. It was a one-sided half relationship, and the only thing I got out of it was hurt. I held you up on a pedestal, I treated you like a king, everyone knew you were my guy and that I'd do anything for you.
Eventually you threw me to the side because you found someone better. What was it about her that made you leave me? What did she have that I didn't? Those are questions I asked myself every night as I was crying myself to sleep. Was she younger? Prettier? What was it? I did everything you asked, yet still here I am watching from afar as you two laugh and giggle. I can't explain how I feel because I'm numb.
The only thing my head could think of was: Befriend her, so you could be like her. Change so he would want you. And really, that just made you dislike me more. When that didn't work I went for jealousy-- find someone and rub it in his face. But that just made me shallow and hurt in the end once again. You never even looked at me unless you needed something. And I would drop everything and do what you wanted. I was your puppet that you used for awhile but then found a new one so I was put into the closet, set to be dusty for the rest of my life.
Every time you'd break up with her, there was a part of me that was like, "Finally it's my turn," but there was another part of me that said, “He doesn't want you.” To make it worse, you’d both sometimes come to me for advice about the other and, me, being the good person I am, set my feelings aside and helped you both out.
But do you know what? I've come out a better and bigger person. Not only did I notice I was a pushover. I've grown to be confident in myself and I know that I deserve better than you. I am someone who can stand up for herself and walk through life with her chin held high. I now know what I want in a companion and how I need to be treated.
I just want to thank you. Thanks for basically using me, and for not showing me any attention because now I know what I want in life and what I need. So thanks for choosing her over me, because I would have just been held down by you.
Sincerely,
The Confident Chick
