First off, you have to know that I never wanted to be just friends. I always wanted more. When we first met, I knew I liked you. Unfortunately for me, you had a girlfriend. That obviously didn't stop me from trying. I was secretly hoping things would end so I could shoot my shot. But that isn't how things turned out. You were always a great friend to me. So lets re-live the past few years of our friendship shall we?

Sophomore Year: We first met. I learned so much about you. From your passions to past, I heard a lot. We had a lot of deep conversations with each other about our lives and our families. I was able to open up to you and share things with you that I never wanted to discuss with my other friends. I have a lot of memories from sophomore year. You first introduced me to the strawberry lemonade frozen drink from Einsteins that I am still skeptical is actually on the menu. And to this day, I still refuse to order one without you with me. There were several evenings that you came over to good ole Cherry Street to hang out with Maddy and me. Sometimes you brought your skateboard, which brought along a lot of laughs. You tried to teach me how to ride a skateboard. I sucked at it, but I promise you are a great teacher. I also remember our open conversations on my living room couch where we coincidentally kissed for the first time whether you remember or not. I remember going to visit you at Cardinal Court with Maddy to watch some sports game. I saw your roommate in just underwear that night. I'm still scarred. I stayed the night that night and tried so hard to makeout with you. You wouldn't budge though. At least not at first. I remember storing your alcohol in my apartment kitchen so you wouldn't get caught with it at Cardinal Court. I remember playing country music and singing along to songs with you. Even though I am a terrible singer and hate singing in front of people I still had fun. My favorite memory is when I was having guy trouble. I was talking to a guy from a few months and all of a sudden it ended. I was very crushed. Maddy and Brooke kept trying to talk to me and get into my room and I didn't want them. I wanted you. And they called you and you showed up. I lost it. I cried to you and you just held me. You filled me with compliments and made me feel so much better about myself and the situation. You also had your infamous strawberry lemonade shake with you. I asked if it was for me and you said no, but you let me finish it anyway. Probably because I was crying, but hey I still got the shake. I can't thank you enough for that night. I realized that you were a true friend and there was no way I was losing you in my life. It made me like you even more. And just like that, sophomore year ended and you went back home to your girl for the summer.

Junior Year: This year was definitely my year. I flourished and I found myself. I also have some regrets from this year. Dating you was my biggest one. We didn't really see much of each other. I saw you perform at March Madness and it was super good. I didn't know you had moves. I remember calling you one night when I was a little intoxicated. I was having guy problems again. Shocker right? Anyway that night you told me how beautiful I was and how I deserved better. Just like last time. I know it was frustrating for you because you wanted to be with me and I was always dating douchebags that treated me like crap. But then we hung out and I came over to see your house. I met your roommate and his girlfriend and we drank. I took 3 shots in 30 mins and never felt drunk more quick than that. I wanted to seem cool lol. They were awesome people to be around and I had a lot of fun. We ended up going bowling and playing pool. Well we didn't bowl because I suck at it sober and I am even worse when I'm drunk. I was pretty good at pool though. I can't remember who won but I'd like to think it was a close game. You walked me to my car that night even though we both know I shouldn't have been driving. You kissed me right before I left. And let me tell you, I love a man that kisses you when you least expect it. It caught me off guard and I loved it.

Senior Year: I don't quite know yet how I feel about this year, but I guess after you read this we will find out. We have hung out a couple times this year. We went to the dining center to eat after I picked you up after your chapter meeting one Sunday night. We hung out one other time at your house. I tried tequila for the first time and it was disgusting. You played guitar for me and it was amazing. Still waiting on my song though lol. You told me what happened with Haley. I feel really bad about that. But you deserve better. After that you told me how you don't want people to hit you up just when they are sad because they want attention or because they want you to tell them they are pretty. I know that I am guilty of this. And you're absolutely right. You deserve to be with someone that knows you worth and how amazing you are. That is why I wouldn't let you kiss me that night when you asked. I wanted to be completely 100% sure that you were what I wanted and nothing standing in my way.

Moral of the story is that I've been hurt and I have hurt people. I didn't think it was fair to lead you on or start something if I couldn't finish it. I also was scared to open myself up to getting hurt again. I want to apologize for taking so long to figure out how special you are. You would be an amazing boyfriend. You are always there for me. I can jam out with you. I can give my awkward hugs to you. I can be my dorky self with you. I can only hope that I am not too late and that one day I can get the chance to experience a relationship with you. And if you decide that you don't want that, then I will understand and respect that. I wish I would have realized a lot sooner what I had in you and taken you off the market when I could. You have always given me a lot and been there for me and I want to do that same for you. I want to make you happy and be the one you wanna go to when you have exciting news and the one you want to make memories with. So, since we both love country music. Listen to "Best Shot" by Jimmie Allen. That explains what I am trying to tell you. Stay golden. Never stop being you and always remember your worth and how special you are. Don't settle for anything less. I will always cherish our friendship and be grateful to Maddy for introducing us. Thank you for always being the best guy friend a girl could ask for, even if that girl always wanted you as more than her guy best friend.