Dear Future Big,

I do not know who you are yet but that is okay. My love for you is already so great and I am counting down the days until I run into your arms. I know I love you not only because you are showering me with gifts and attention this week, but because I know you care. I know you are about to accompany me on my journey of becoming a full member of our sorority and I will be able to turn to you with any small, stupid question I may have within the next three years—and trust me, there will be many. You will be my shoulder to cry on in a break-up or the person to tell me I have deodorant stains on my formal dress. I know you will get to know me inside and out and we will share many memories together. Before I meet you, I want you to realize something, though. I am a guarded person. I don’t open up fast to people but I have learned that that is okay. Just give me time and I promise we will be sharing stories and laughing together at inside jokes in no time. This is what makes me, me… I know you will only have the greatest acceptance for who I truly am:

1. I am awkward

Imagine a mixture of bad Dad jokes and horrible puns that you see on T-shirts in a dollar store. Yup, that is me. I like laughing, but I am often the one laughing at my own jokes. You might think it is weird at first but please just laugh at me. If we are weird together then maybe we can seem somewhat normal. I know you are going to accept my awkwardness and laugh at my jokes no matter how confused you are and how embarrassed you are of me. We are going to have fun though, I promise you that.

2. I am disorganized.

My room might seem neat to you this week but that is because I feel like I should make my bed really neat for you to decorate. I am not organized, nor am I perfect in any way so I hope your not looking for that. My phone is often uncharged, my hair is not always pin straight, and I don’t always have my day perfectly planned out. I am a freshman and I am still learning. I am learning to manage my time, to create a balance between social and academic life, and to find my place in our sorority. It is going to take the time to reach any point of perfection but I know you will understand. You were once in my position and you will be here to help me learn and grow.

3. I have my bad days.

I have had days spent in bed having Disney movie marathons and I have weekend nights that I just cannot get myself to go out. Let me vent to you, I promise I will be okay and listen to your advice. Watch me stuff my mouth with acorn cookies or Ben & Jerry’s and encourage me to do so. Make me laugh and send me funny GIFs or Memes. I am not usually positive and luckily my bad days are slim in number, but when they do come I know you will be my saving grace.

I’m not an exemplary person and I come with my flaws. I might be quiet or shy on some days and others I will be loud and singing my heart out to Beyonce. I do not need to ask you, because I know you are already going to accept me for who I am. I cannot wait to meet you Big, I am ready to begin our new adventure in five short days.