To start this letter off, I don't hate you. This letter is not me ranting on how much I hate you for leaving, because I don't. This letter is a thank you, for the wonderful year we had together, and for everything you did for me.
The year we were together was filled with ups and downs, but we still adored one another, despite our differences and internal flaws. You're a great guy; you care so much for your family and friends. And you cared so much for me; thank you.
We went throughout a lot together: two proms, Disney World, band trips, Valentines day, birthdays, Christmas and more. I'm glad I got to experience those wonderful memories with you.
But as the saying goes, all good things must come to an end. Once I graduated, we saw one another less and less and it was so hard. When I finally got to see you for the first time at work I was so happy, but that mood quickly changed to disbelief.
I didn't understand why this was happening, I tried everything, pleaded through my tears begging you to listen to me.. begging you to stay. It didn't work, it was hard for the both of us. I left work crying that day and learned later that when I left you cried too.
The next few days were hard; I'm not going to lie. I had a few great friends, and my wonderful family who supported me and got me through the heart break. I didn't understand why this happened; I thought this was my fault and I was so angry with myself.
The next week it became easier, but more challenges surfaced and my heart became more visible on my sleeve. Our group of friends who I held so closely to my heart started disappearing one by one. That broke my heart. I learned who cared and who didn't, and I am thankful for my family and my true friends who helped me get through this.
It took my a long time for me to come to terms that we broke up and that I lost some of our friends, wasn't my fault. I don't hate you; I'm angry that this happened. To be quite sincere, I'm grateful, extremely grateful, actually.
I changed a lot over this summer; I became more independent, free and finally learned how to stand on my own without leaning on support. It was lonely, I admit it. Once in awhile, I would wish that there was someone to hold me, but each day it became easier and easier.
As you told me the day we broke up: college was a whole new world for me. I've made so many new friends, met someone new who makes my heart so happy. I found myself again, I found peace, my heart's never been this happy.
This letter took a lot of courage to write. This letter is me letting go of the past and moving on to my future. I forgive you, and I will always care for you.
Thank you for everything and good luck in whatever you do. I wish you the best and thank you for setting me free.
Sincerely, Haylee.
