Dear Old Flame,

I’ll never forget the night that changed my heart forever. It was a Saturday night in September that my heart broke harder than ever before. Its pieces on the ground had sharper edges, I bled a little longer and I cried a little more than I ever did in the past. It was the night that my mouth spoke three words. Three words that I felt would connect us more were the same three words that separated us forever two days later. I am writing this tonight to let you know that it is okay you didn’t love me back. Of course it took me until now to do it because it hurt me for a while. It never hurt because the love I gave wasn’t returned, it hurt because you dragged me around knowing I was falling deeper with every moment and you didn’t tell me that while I was falling in, you were fading out. You stayed with me knowing I wasn’t the one. Every time I looked into your eyes and gave you the option to leave, you looked right back and said that I meant everything to you and kissed me like you wanted to prove those words. Never have I felt such convincing lips on mine. I, like many, never caught the signs or tasted the truth on those beautifully convincing lips.

You always told me you were so afraid of the future and worried that I would up and go one day out of nowhere like your past lover did. Gotta love the irony because you’re no longer around. I tiered my tongue and wore out my heart trying so hard to let you know I would be here and that though the future was unknown, I would do my best to always make us work because I meant those three words that Saturday night. It took me awhile to figure it out but, I learned that it was never about the future or me leaving, you just didn’t love me. It was you who wanted to take a bow. You wanted everything a girlfriend provided without the strings attached. As time went on, you knew my heart was beating harder for you and you wanted a way out of my life because you knew yours wasn’t beating as hard for me. The same strings you didn’t want somehow strung me along until my three words led you out the driveway never to return. I could keep going on this but I don’t want to because honestly, it is what it is. I just hope you find someone that you can love the way I loved you.

Sincerely,

A Changed Heart