In my life I have had a number of different relationships turn bitter, but honestly who hasn’t? Not all of them were friends; some were like friends or were even family. This is an open letter to ALL the people I waved goodbye to, hung up the phone on, or simply just turned around and walked away from.
Dear Blank, you haven’t heard from me in a pretty long time. We did not necessarily have a falling out but it's more that we grow apart and we both made the decision to not reach out. Communication is a two way street and I can’t take all the blame for how our situation worked out but I can take my fair share, and that’s half. Actually it might be a little more than half. At a young age I learned some rather painful lessons, being that I can’t trust anyone, and that a leopard never changes its spots, meaning people don’t change. It is because of the lessons I learned that I am more incline to see the warning signs in a dying relationship and then pull away before I give people the chance to hurt me.
The strange part is I cannot really say that I hate you or that I don’t like you, but its more that I didn’t see us as a positive match, and think we should have as little amount of contact as humanly possible. I still occasionally think about you, but not in a sad way or, to be honest, even in a way that makes me miss you, but more so as a found memory, kind of in the way that I think about a canceled TV show I used to like, but now forgot about. However, I can say I still do feel some bad blood now and again between us. I keep noting that it reminds me of you being around me, especially on photos, and when I am reminded of you, somehow I don’t remember good memories, but rather I remember the reasons why we no longer speak.
It is a small world, a very small world indeed, and because it is so small, it does not always work out that we don’t run into someone who we wish we hadn’t, meaning that there have been times we have driven past each other or ended up being in the same restaurant, and maybe it is a facial expression I have or just that we both feel completely mutual that we have ignored each other. Isn’t it strange how people who were once inseparable now both pretend to not see each other? And the stranger part is, I think we both ignore each other because we know if we don’t and we start talking, we may regain some sort of awkward, temporary relationship that we know would not end well. Basically what I am trying to say is: even though I find this situation so strange, this is how it has to be, but I wish you the best in your endeavors.
