Dear Future Child of Mine,
I could tell you that I love you right now, I could say it a million times, but that probably won't work. I know that those certainly won't fill the void some idiot made in your heart. But let me tell you something else...
The feeling that you have will probably happen again. Relationships, no matter who they be with, will come and go. You will feel as broken as you do now about a million times more until you find the right human being for your perfect personality. It's true, there will be no other person to live up to your awesomeness, but when there is one, I am sure your dad and I will know, but until now...
I will be there for you when you are eight-years-old and the little friend you made in class who turned into someone we enjoyed regular playdates, but turned into someone who stole your toy or started talking to another person other than you. When boys tease you, if you like boys, that does not mean they like you and don't put up with their garbage. Also, please let me get called to discipline only when really necessary. In other words, violence doesn't solve the issue, it only promotes the emotions. Let go of the little friend and realize how much potential you truly have. I am sure things will be better, just give it a couple of days.
I will be there for you when you are twelve-years-old and you want to go on your first "date" to the mall because you really like this one. You may give them your first kiss, but please let me know before and after you do it. Yes, I may discourage you from making the move, but it's only because I don't want to hear you crying in your room over someone who doesn't deserve your love. I will not be mad or disappointed, just please care for yourself because I care for you. I will make sure to not be the awkward mom and listen into your conversations, but I will make sure you're taking care of yourself because heartbreak starts so soon.
I will be there for you when you are fifteen-years-old and come home crying from school because your longest relationship just ended. I will have ice-cream and movies to watch until you fall asleep and I get to stare at that beautiful, teary-eyed face. We will burn their items they've given you over the relationship, if you'd like to. I am up for anything to make you happy. You are so wonderful and anyone who doesn't see that is missing out.
I will be there for you when you're eighteen-years-old and you skip family meals to hangout with your person. I will be there when you want to push me away and not discuss the intimate details of your relationship, but instead describe how you both watch the same shows and listen to the same music. I will probably ask too much, leading us to get into arguments, but in the end, I just want you to be taken care of. I will be there when you come home that night and slam your door, not wanting to talk to anyone. Once again, I will find a way in and cuddle you until you fall asleep. I will call your friends to come over because I know they are the true people who cheer you up. You will not be allowed to stay in your room and cry forever because I know this will happen again.
I will be there for you when you're twenty-years-old and you'll bring someone you think is really special home for a weekend. I will not approve silently, but loudly embrace their quirks only because you like them. When they break up with you for traveling or being on different levels in life, I will make you soup and go on walks with you and smash glass with you, if you want that. You probably won't want your mom to comfort you, but I won't forget to let you know that you'll be alright because you will.
I will be there for you in between every age until you're ready to bring home the person of your dreams. Things won't be perfect, but they will be better than ever before. I finally trust this person to love your kind heart like I have throughout the years. I allow this wonderful human being to marry you and I will be there for that too. And when things mess up, you can call me and talk to me about it.
I will be there when you look into the eyes of your child and see the same future that I saw for you so many years ago. You will fall in love with someone that day who breaks your heart frequently like you did mine. Don't worry, I will be there for that too.
Love you forever and always,
Your Future Mom
