My friend,
Sometimes it is hard to figure out what we want and what we deserve. We crave and desire these perfect ideologies so much that we are left in situations where we are not getting what we deserve. In other words, the comfort, love and the girlfriend that you so desperately want is not the same as the mental abuse and unhappiness that you have received. You do not deserve that. You do not deserve to be cheated on, lied to or yelled at. You do not deserve to be controlled, confined or dictated. You do not deserve to be told you can't see your friends, or find unfaithful messages on their phone. You shouldn't feel trapped in unhappiness. You are not an unwanted pet. You want to be loved but you are not loved. This is not love. You settle for this abuse because it's supposed to be love, but you deserve better. You are beautiful and kind. Your heart is big and your smile is contagious. You deserve to laugh and have fun. You deserve to be free and independent. You deserve to be trusted and to be able to trust. You deserve to go a month without being dumped and pulled around like a yo-yo. You deserve to be happy. Happiness isn't a privilege or a luxury. It is your human right.
Please understand how amazing you are and how bright you can shine, please love yourself. Once you do that, you will know your worth and what you deserve. Then, one day you will wake up and realize that you do not need to live a life leaded by mental abuse. You do not need to live your life at the convenience of another. You need to live a life filled with love and vibrancy. It hurts me and the people around you to watch you struggle everyday. We see your pain and we hear your outcry but no matter what we do, we cannot seem to help you enough. Not enough to help you walk away. There seems to be a piece of the puzzle missing. That piece is you. You are the only person who has yet to help yourself. I can’t figure out what else to do. My last hope is that you read this, and that perhaps everything that I have been saying to you will make a difference once it is written down. I can only swear from the bottom of my heart that what you are receiving is not love. It is abuse, abuse that you do not deserve. You are a wonderful person that cares a lot, and you settle for nothing. Your entire life people have walked on you, let you down and left you hanging by a thread. I know that you are used to poor treatment from others, but that isn’t how this goes. It is time for you to stand up for yourself and demand to be treated like a decent human being. Do not take anything less than what you deserve, which is the world.
