I've been there. I know, it's hard. You're going through a terrible breakup. You think it's never going to get better. But guess what. It will.
You may not see it now, but everything gets so much better.
Yes, I was once like you. But yes, I found the GOOD in goodbye. That goodbye was the best thing that had ever happened to me, even though I didn't know it at the time. At the time, I was sad beyond words. I didn't want to get out of bed. I never thought it was going to get better. I just thought everything was going to get worse.
Then one day, a long time later, I woke up and I was happy. I was happy with myself and my life. I was over my ex. I was truly living my best life at this point. The day that I had been hoping and praying for finally came.
Without that goodbye, I never would have found the amazing guy I'm with today. He treats me so good. I am so much happier now than I have ever been. Without that goodbye, I never would have found the real me. That goodbye made me into the person I am today and I could never be more thankful for something.
Right now, it's hard. It may be hard for a long time. But eventually, everything will be 10x better than you could even imagine. Just know that if your relationship didn't work out, it's nobody's fault. Some things just aren't meant to be, and that's ok.