So it seems like every time I get on social media these days someone is either pregnant, had their beautiful baby, or engaged. Honestly, I am super happy for each and every one of you and I do not want y'all to think that this is me putting you down for any reason. I am at a point in my life where I won't have a ring by the spring semester before graduation, and that is okay.
I am single. I say this not because I want someone to take pity on me and date me, it's because I have not for a really long time and actually ever been single in my young adult life. Ever since high school I have had a boyfriend and, honestly, I wanted to be someone who got their ring by spring. But being single has made me re-adjust some of my life goals, and I am the happiest I have ever been. I stopped searching for a career that could support a family and started searching for a career that could make me happy. I stopped making decisions based on someone else's life choices and started doing what I wanted. I don't think being in a relationship hurt my life in anyway, but by being alone and forcing myself to make my own decisions I have a grasp on who I am away from anyone.
I am young. There are things in my life I have yet to do and see. There are places I haven't been and traditions I haven't yet made. This is the time in my life where I get to be selfish and do these things without having to sacrifice for or even consider someone else's opinion or life. I get to explore everything the world has to offer and not have to worry about making my husband dinner or seeing if the kids homework is done. I get to live my life according to me and what I want.
My standards are too high. I went to a wedding this weekend and there was something that truly stuck out to me. The preacher had once asked the bride why after she and the groom had broken up once had she not started dating other people and she replied, "Brandon and my Father have set such high standards, I shouldn't have to lower them for anyone else." I deserve the man who is going to treat me the way I believe I should be treated. I deserve someone who appreciates me and all that I do for him and I am not going to settle until that man makes an appearance.
Lastly, like your mom always used to say; "Just because everyone else is doing it, doesnt mean you have to, too." These people that I see on my timeline have different lives than me. Their path has been created especially for them and God has seen it fit for them to be with that person and engaged or pregnant at this time. I am truly happy for you he just doesn't think its my time yet. When it is my time, don't worry you'll know, it will be all over my social media because if some poor soul wants to be with me for the rest of his life, it will be nothing short of a miracle.
