Why. What is wrong if I get bigger, aren't I just getting stronger? I was never worried about getting bigger, as a matter of fact, it never crossed my mind. I felt like I was being told don't lift too heavy you'll get too big. However, I didn't notice a change in size, I noticed a change in the definition my muscles. And my quad that was injured, now on days I would run, no pain. Lifting only made my quads stronger, which in the end healed my injury. After a few months I realized I can lift, however much I feel capable of doing. I wasn't going to get huge, or bulky. I wasn't going to have thunder thighs. I was going to develop muscular thighs. My legs are toned and strong. After more research I found it's not just lifting weights it's what you eat that can give you the "bulky" look. After turning to lifting, but continuing to run I feel more confident and stronger than in my five years as just a runner.

I would run to keep my mileage up in the afternoon and then lift every now and then at night. But lifting helped me learn about my body, what muscles I'm using, how they are affected in each exercise. I would be excited during the day just because I would get to lift at night. Eventually, after learning how my body works I was able to get creative an add and change workouts to fit my preference for that day. For me the gym is mental and physical escape. When I'm in the gym it's my time. I can focus on what I want to do for myself and my body. The gym has turned into a safe haven for me -- a place where I go to let go of all my worries and focus on bettering myself.

I will always continue to run and running has a special place in my heart. But when I became frustrated and impatient, I found something that healed me physically and mentally. I love seeing my progress every week. And maybe I have gotten bulky, but it's muscle and I'm more confident than ever.

If you are a woman who fears picking up the dumbbells or looking "bulky" I challenge you to test yourself. Try lifting, it's amazing the feeling of power and strength it brings. I hope lifting makes you feel strong again, I hope the gym gives you a place to escape, and helps you achieve goals you didn't know were possible.