Hello, my name is Megan Ferguson and I am a serial apologizer.

I would rather apologize before getting into what I am feeling just to avoid conflict. It is much easier for me to solve a problem by saying sorry and trying to forget what happened.

I have done this all of my life. From the smallest, pettiest fights to all the big ones. I can't sleep at night knowing someone is upset with me--even if I am in the right. It truly gives me a horrible feeling. This isn't a random people pleasing thing--this is about the people around me whom I truly care about.

It is human nature to get into arguments. If you are in any type of relationship, it is natural to not agree on everything. Disagreement is a part of life. Unfortunately, it is an unbearable part of life for me.

I believe that it is important to voice your opinion. I would want anyone upset with me to tell me exactly what they are feeling, yet I find it hard to do the same.

At the end of the day I have to ask myself: is it worth it? Is it worth it to bring it up, upset everyone and end up apologizing for expressing myself? It is a never-ending cycle. If I end up bringing up the conflict, I quickly regret it when seeing how much it hurts the other person's feelings.

Of course there is no need to start an argument that could have easily been avoided. I am not one for drama in my friendships. It isn't fun and it is really unneeded. At the same time, if there is a real issue and you care about that relationship, you have to work to fix it. The best way is to be open and honest. This day in age it is hard to do that.

This was way more prevalent in high school, but do you ever address something over text and it just ends up being a whole miscommunication mess? Your poor wording turns into subtweets and angry texts and eventually no replies.

All of that nonsense is just asking for me to be anxious. It makes me read into everything I have ever said and thinking that my opinion and voice isn't valid, and that just isn't true. In the wise words of Dr. Phil "perception is reality." No matter if it really isn't how things are, if you perceive it a certain way, it is very hard to see another point of view.

Hopefully you are better than me, voice your opinion, and stick your ground, because you are worth it.