It's hard to describe what pain feels like, and I'm not talking about the scratches you would get on your knees as a kid, or the time you stubbed your toe on the edge of the bed. The pain you get from being heartbroken; whether that came from a breakup, losing a loved one, a friendship ending or the hard times a person endures. It's unclear to describe pain because sometimes a person is never really sure how they may feel during this time.
They say pain is temporary, but when do we know it's gone? How can we move on if we're constantly unsure of how to move on? In my own words, when going through a really hard time, there's this constant fire in me, and I keep adding fuel constantly because all I want to do is be strong and push through it. I never like to burden people with my issues, and I know many people often feel the same. I asked a few anonymous sources what it felt like to them.
"The pit in your stomach that in absorbing the rest of your being leaving nothing but numbness. When you go to cry but there's no more tears, when you go to scream but there's no sound. When you want to be strong but you can't stop shaking. Pain is when you want to feel, but your body is stopping you because what you would feel would hurt too much. So your natural instinct to survive makes you numb"
"Pain is that point you reach when you want to scream but you are so exhausted that you can't even manage a whisper. It's numbness and disbelief, and it's not always a negative thing. Sometimes pain is necessary for you to grow. And that's how it helps you heal. You can't ignore something and you can't fight it. You have to accept that it exists and not move on from it, because it will be a part of you from that point on, but you can move forward with it, acknowledging and accepting it. It'll still hurt but that is the moment that you know you've begun to heal. When you fully feel the pain you can begin to accept it."
You cannot disregard pain because it is essential to feel it. Healing is where you can begin to grow and learn to live again. Healing is accepting that things went wrong, but you are OK with it. Healing is understanding that things will have to change, but you aren't afraid. Healing is being able to let go of the poison that's been injected throughout your body and sucking it all out.
"Healing is the process of returning to normalcy. It's acknowledging your hurting and choosing not to ignore it but to go through every day facing it. It's acknowledging your hurt but getting through the day anyway. Everyday, every step you take throughout the day you get close to healing. It's when you can remove the stitches and see the scar but still know you are beautiful and learn from your mistakes."
Something I've learned with pain is knowing that I have the power to end it. Any negative energy, influences, circumstances that are surrounded in my life, I have the power to change that. I cannot change the past events, but I can create a future where I can be ready to endure pain, but with strength. Always remember with pain, comes healing, and someone to hold your hand. You are not alone, and these hard times aren't forever.
