As someone who fears the worst out of almost every waking moment of the day, the month of October is a truly feared 31 days for me. Even though my birthday falls in the midst of October, I still do not look forward to the constant joy my friends and family get from scaring me.

Halloween is not all pumpkin spice lattes, pretty falling leaves, and wonderful scented candles. It has a dark and twisty side that even Meredith Grey couldn't handle.

I've never been a fan of scary movies. But Halloween time is the prime time for every movie production company to release their newest "let's make all the people triggered by the element of surprise" movies. Which means that commercial breaks during your favorite shows will consist of at least 2-3 scary movie previews. That later makes me sit in my dark room at bedtime thinking "is Annabelle staring at me from the corner?" or "what happens if I wake up and someone is standing at the end of my bed?" I think too much into the movies. My friends forced me to watch "The Ring" a few years back, and I was convinced I was going to receive a phone call with a small child whispering "seven days" into the phone and hanging up. And seeing "based on a true story" in the opening credits makes it infinitely worse. What if what happens to these poor people happens to me one day? Yep. No. Just going to watch Cinderella or Elf to bring some light to my day.

Then comes the pop-up Halloween stores. My friends love taking me into them. Why companies have an obsession to have extremely realistic animatronic monsters move and speak with 20 different functions, I'll never know. Just let me find a cute costume without screaming half a dozen times every time I turn the corner.

I don't do haunted houses. Don't try to convince me, don't try to pay me to go. It's not going to happen. Why would I willingly attend an abandoned warehouse filled with clowns and Freddy and Jason lookalikes that jump out of dark places and cause my heart to jump out of my chest? I'm too young to risk a potential heart attack. Let me sit at home and hide in my comfy bed from the horrors of the world.

Halloween gives me anxiety. I already overthink everyday school and life situations, I don't need to add on to that anymore. I'll watch happy movies, not go to haunted houses, and just Pinterest a costume to avoid any and all Halloween related fears.