College is this rude awakening where everything is flowers and roses, and then reality hits you maybe the second or third week of classes of what your life is going to be like for the next three and a half months. Going into college you have no idea what your getting yourself into. You may think you have some idea of conception of what it's going to be like, but there's always a little of false sense of reality put on by admissions and counselors of the kind of life you're going to have. It's hard. Like, college is really hard. And you think you're going to get involved in all these things and you create this lifestyle in your head which immediately changes when you're up at 3 AM studying for an exam you know that you're going to bomb either way. I went into college with this false lifestyle. I chose a major that wasn't for me, which I didn't realize, because I had no clue what me interests really were. I went into college wanting to get out of the small town lifestyle, and change the world in some way.

Now I'm not saying like I'm gonna end world hunger tomorrow or anything but I want to affect someone's life positively in some way. I quickly realized as I started my first semester that I didn't want to be doing research in the lab for the rest of my life. Yeah doing research could benefit people, but I wanted to be hands on with my environment and the outside world, interacting with people using the gifts and abilities God gave me. I think it's great that some people have the gifts to be able to do that type of work, but I can't sit for more then two hours at a time, and so I felt that the major I was in was limiting me and my overall happiness. I realized that I didn't enjoy the major I was in, even though it was my first semester of college. In my new major, sustainability, I feel like I can use my gifts and abilities to the fullest and that I can use my major to reach out to people while finding ways to protect, preserve, and conserve the environment.

The Lord has given us this beautiful earth and I feel that God has given me the passion and drive to go and take care of it and make something amazing out of it. I'm not sure what the Lord has planned for me but I'm pumped to see what he's got in store for me. I can't wait to explore this crazy world and all it has to offer and find ways to improve people's lives. The road to get there is going to be hard, and I'm not using this as an excuse to take the "easy way out," but I'm using it as a way to explore more oppertunities and find happiness.