Being the oldest sibling can just outright suck. Not because I don't love them, but because of the responsibility that carries with it. Having younger siblings can be a curse and a blessing. They admire you, and respect you. You become a model figure for them. They even idolize you! They are always so interested in your life, even if you don’t want them to be. Don’t get me wrong being the oldest sibling can be wonderful, however it is a lot of pressure. For me being the oldest has been a constant struggle. Having a younger sister, and brother is hard work. I receive a ton of pressure from not only my parents, but from them as well. They expect me to stay within that role model ideal. I constantly feel like I let them down.
In my opinion, having a younger sister is by far the hardest thing I’ve had to deal with. She is consistently asking me for advice with school or work. She is always stealing my ideas, or expecting me to help her with whatever drama she has going on that week. It’s hard to live up to what she expects me to be. I live with the fear that I could give her bad advice, or do something wrong because my life is not perfect. She looks up to me, so in her eyes my life is tough. Living with this constant pressure, is extremely stressful. I love her, but I can’t let her down. I want to solve all her problems, but I can’t. Knowing this kills me.
Having a little brother is not quite as hard. He comes to me with all of his girl advice, and I can teach him how to be an actual gentlemen. My little brother, who is extremely younger than me, sees me as this cool person (which I am totally not). To him I am one of the guys. I play sports with him, and kick his butt in video games. He sees the child in me, but doesn’t quite understand that I have a life too. I can tell he becomes upset when I would rather go out with my friends then sit inside and play Madden. He wants to spend all of this time with me that I do not have. I feel like I am disappointing him.
Being the oldest you always have somebody watching you, and analyzing what you do. It’s kind of like monkey see, monkey do. I live with this pressure all of the time, but I wouldn’t change them for the world. I love my siblings which makes all the pressure worth it.
