For the past couple of months, I have learned to let go of things that were not meant for my life. Friendships, relationships, jobs, Lifestyle choices, etc. All of these things have been slowly renewed by new and better choices. I guess the reason why I had so many of those unpleasant things in my life was because I learned to just settle for the usual. Yet, as a Daughter of God, I can't just settle. I believe that we do deserve better things, not just things that we learn to settle for. Yet, I did not see "positive progression" in the very beginning of 2016, I actually had to go through a lot of dark times to get to where I am today. I had to get to the lowest of the lowest to be able to understand that I had a purpose in this life, that I could do great things and to accept that I am loved by those in my life.
I guess it all began, the night I had a tough conversation with God over prayer. I called Him a "jerk", because of all that was happening around me. I know it sounds horrible that someone like me, would say something like that to Him, yet I know we as people are "broken" and "unperfect" people too. From that night, I decided to give Him full control of my studies, my career, my friendships, my family and most importantly my heart. Sometimes we just need to get to our lowest to rise above.
In a way, I responded to Him and truly gave Him the steer in my Life. Just like Jeremiah 33:3 -- It states, "Call to me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know." I am grateful that these couple of months have been a blessing in my life. Getting my license, getting my research on Hair & Identity on Latinas and African American Women accepted, Getting the opportunity to be the new Editor in Chief for the Odyssey at CCSU and even, having the chance to go to Puerto Rico after 4 years of not seeing my family. All these things, I could not have done them without me giving full control to the one who knows what He has in store for my life.
All in all, I am grateful that I had to fall to learn to walk again, to lose my sight to see again and to lose to win. In the end, I am glad I can be human; because that means that I don't have to be perfect to be called a "Child of God", just like all of you.
