“God says ‘the reason why some people have turned against you and walked away from you without reason has nothing to do with you. It is because I have removed them from your life because they cannot go where I am taking you next. They would only hinder you at the next level because they have already served their purpose in your life. Let them go and keep moving. Greater is coming your way’ says the Lord.”
How many times have I asked myself why? Why couldn’t things work out the way I expected them to? Why is the one person I couldn’t wait to tell everything about my day to the one person I find myself avoiding eye contact with when I pass them by? There is no rhyme or reason to the way things ended; there is no closure or logical explanation to why they aren’t around anymore. I would give anything to rewind to one night of doing nothing, a simple moment of fighting over what to watch on Netflix and if Jets really is the best pizza place. I still find myself looking for pieces of them in others, a conversation with another will bring up an inside joke only we shared. Everything about us seemed to just make sense; you aren’t supposed to feel that way around someone and it goes nowhere.
“The reason why some people have turned against you and walked away from you without reason has nothing to do with you.”
I spent hours analyzing why something that felt so fun and free escaped me; the typical pity party questions of why am I not enough filled me. Nothing about the situation made sense, going from “I don’t have this much fun or cant be myself like this with anybody else” to “I doubt I even cross their mind” seems ridiculous. I was angry, I was hurt, I was confused but then I learned that some people are just meant to be in our lives to light fires within us. They may not be meant for us, they may not be meant to play the role we so badly wish they would play but instead bring us to places we have never seen and show us lessons about ourselves we would have never learned without them. No matter how badly I wanted them to stay and keep me laughing with their dorky dance moves and playful jokes, if they would have stayed I would have never moved forward to all the other places I needed to see. I wish I could have taken them with me to where I needed to go next, I wish they wanted to go rather than slowly disappear from my world, but as God said,
“It is because they cannot go where I am taking you next. They would only hinder you at the next level because they have already served their purpose in your life.”
I trust that it was nothing against me that they are no longer around, they served their purpose and now I know all the amazing things that I have to share with another.
“Let them go and keep moving.”
So now I will keep moving forward, I no longer stay where I constantly wonder why everything went so wrong, why when I see them now it is as if they have never seen my face when so long ago they looked me dead in the eye and smiling. I do not need to understand the reasons anymore, I only need to trust that we were perfect for each other in those small simple moments at that time, but now more opportunities are meant to take our time and attention.
“Greater is coming your way”
Before I met them, I had no idea what it felt like to be completely myself around another and be accepted in my entirety, but before I met them I also never felt the pain of losing the person you desired more than anything else. It was hard to tell myself the absence of their presence meant there was room for greater things to grow. Now I trust that if they were not meant to stay and grow with me, then something even greater must be meant for me. I still miss the way they would playfully trip me while racing up the stairs, or being sang to extremely off key in the car, but now I understand I was right they were perfect for me but only for that period of time. There are millions of other experiences and individuals I am meant to meet, greater is coming my way.
