What's it like in heaven? Is it nice up there?
It's so different down here without you.
I bet the angels are happy to have you; I bet they love your jokes. I bet they're all laughing more now that they have you with them.
You always had that effect on people, the ability to make them laugh no matter how bad their day was going. That's what I miss the most.
Are you happy up there? Are you free of all your fears? Can you still do the things that you love?
I still find myself thinking about you every day, hoping that you're doing alright up there; smiling, laughing, and doing everything you loved when you were here.
How often do you find yourself watching over us down here?
I wish so badly that I could just talk to you, tell you about all the things I have done and continue to do, hear you tell me that you're proud.
Do you still get to cook and sew and do all the other things that used to bring you so much joy?
That's something I miss so much. The taste of the lunch you made for us after a long day on the lake. I wouldn't have ever said it when you were here, but you made box crackers and spray cheese taste better than it did anywhere else. I miss the sound of the pots clinking in the kitchen and I miss standing next to you, learning from you as you taught me all your tricks.
Are you able to smile up there just as much as you did here?
I wish I could see your smile. Just one more time. I wish I could feel the way it warmed my heart and made me feel home.
What's it like to be right next to God?
I know you must feel so safe and loved up there in His light and with His protection. The thought warms my heart.
Are you proud of me? Are you listening?
I find myself praying to talk to you more times than not, just to tell you about what I'm happy about, what I'm proud about, and what I'm hurting for. The thought that you're up there listening, just as you would be doing if you were down here is comforting.
Do you know how much you are missed?
It's something that crosses my mind every single day. Everyone says that with time comes the healing of all wounds, but losing you is something that won't ever heal. I will always be thankful for the time we had together down here in this crazy world, but I would give anything to have you back here with me.
I love you bunches, Nana, forever and ever.
