What Skinny Shaming Has Done To Me
Start writing a post
Health and Wellness

What Skinny Shaming Has Done To Me

Always be careful of what you say.

What Skinny Shaming Has Done To Me

“You are so skinny! I wish I was your weight!”

“What do you eat? I would do anything to weigh as much as you do?”

My name is Kyrsten. I am four foot ten inches tall. I currently weigh 90 pounds. This is the lowest I have weighed since middle school.I wear a size 0-1 pants size and most of the time I have to wear a belt because my pants are still a little loose.

I used to wear a size three to four pants and weighed 105 sometimes 110 pounds. Last time I weighed that much was December of 2016.

People think I lost that weight just to lose the weight. What people don’t know is I have an eating disorder. I have Body Dysmorphic Disorder. BDD is basically me seeing my body differently than what other people see it. For the longest time, I thought I was fat. I had rolls and I was extremely jealous of the girls who had a flat stomach. I wanted that.

When I get super stressed, I starve myself. This can continue for days where I eat the bare minimum just so I can survive. People are jealous of how thin I am. Well let me tell you a little secret, I didn’t choose to be this skinny. I can’t take certain medicines because I have no fat on my bones and so I bruise easily. People ask me all the time of the diet I am on so they can be as thin as me.

They don’t know my life or my story.

Again, I didn’t choose to have this life. I didn’t choose to have an eating disorder.

People assume that I love being this tiny. What they don’t know is that I am currently self-conscious of wearing shorts because no matter what there are bruises on my legs from simply just running into something. That is how skinny I am.

People want to know what I eat daily so they can follow the same format. I will give you some advice. Don’t follow my eating habits. For one, I probably eat one solid meal and a couple of snacks depending on the day. Currently, I crave ramen and little mini pizzas so that is all I have been eating with the occasional brownie bites.

My doctor has been so concerned that almost everything he has tried has not gotten me to gain the weight I need. I am currently under weight for my height. I was almost sent to a hospital for my eating disorder. As of this moment, I am on a low dose of medicine that doctors normally give to cancer patients so they have an appetite. I have to take it once a day so I will eat.

This isn’t fun and games. I am sick and people think that I am doing it just to be skinny.

In my opinion, you are skinny shaming me. People telling me how skinny I am and how much they want my body make me feel worse than I already do. Telling me, “Oh girl, you need to put some meat on your bones.” Doesn’t help me any better. Telling me that you are going to force me to eat isn’t going to make me feel better.

I didn’t do it for the heck of it. I lost 15-20 pounds in six months. I have a chance that my organs are going to fail if I do not gain at least ten pounds.

Next time, before you make a comment about someone’s weight maybe think of all the possibilities. Maybe think that there is something else going on with them.

Report this Content
This article has not been reviewed by Odyssey HQ and solely reflects the ideas and opinions of the creator.
houses under green sky
Photo by Alev Takil on Unsplash

Small towns certainly have their pros and cons. Many people who grow up in small towns find themselves counting the days until they get to escape their roots and plant new ones in bigger, "better" places. And that's fine. I'd be lying if I said I hadn't thought those same thoughts before too. We all have, but they say it's important to remember where you came from. When I think about where I come from, I can't help having an overwhelming feeling of gratitude for my roots. Being from a small town has taught me so many important lessons that I will carry with me for the rest of my life.

Keep Reading...Show less
​a woman sitting at a table having a coffee

I can't say "thank you" enough to express how grateful I am for you coming into my life. You have made such a huge impact on my life. I would not be the person I am today without you and I know that you will keep inspiring me to become an even better version of myself.

Keep Reading...Show less
Student Life

Waitlisted for a College Class? Here's What to Do!

Dealing with the inevitable realities of college life.

college students waiting in a long line in the hallway

Course registration at college can be a big hassle and is almost never talked about. Classes you want to take fill up before you get a chance to register. You might change your mind about a class you want to take and must struggle to find another class to fit in the same time period. You also have to make sure no classes clash by time. Like I said, it's a big hassle.

This semester, I was waitlisted for two classes. Most people in this situation, especially first years, freak out because they don't know what to do. Here is what you should do when this happens.

Keep Reading...Show less
a man and a woman sitting on the beach in front of the sunset

Whether you met your new love interest online, through mutual friends, or another way entirely, you'll definitely want to know what you're getting into. I mean, really, what's the point in entering a relationship with someone if you don't know whether or not you're compatible on a very basic level?

Consider these 21 questions to ask in the talking stage when getting to know that new guy or girl you just started talking to:

Keep Reading...Show less

Challah vs. Easter Bread: A Delicious Dilemma

Is there really such a difference in Challah bread or Easter Bread?

loaves of challah and easter bread stacked up aside each other, an abundance of food in baskets

Ever since I could remember, it was a treat to receive Easter Bread made by my grandmother. We would only have it once a year and the wait was excruciating. Now that my grandmother has gotten older, she has stopped baking a lot of her recipes that require a lot of hand usage--her traditional Italian baking means no machines. So for the past few years, I have missed enjoying my Easter Bread.

Keep Reading...Show less

Subscribe to Our Newsletter

Facebook Comments