The fall semester of my junior year things would change more than I thought they would. I didn't really know what was going on in my head but I knew that something didn't feel right. I prayed and prayed that those feelings would go away. But God was opening me up to a new world where I would have to trust and rely on him more than I knew I ever would have to.

There are many things people don't want to tell you about their anxiety/depression. It may be because they don't know how exactly to express the way they feel. It may be because they are scared of the judgment. Or it may be because they just aren't ready to talk about it at that moment. But everyone is different. Every day is different.

So here are some things you may not know...

1. Every Good Day is Not Always "Good": Each good day is going to feel different than the next. One day you may feel ready to conquer the world. The next you may just be counting the minutes until you can crawl back into bed again. That doesn't always mean you had a bad day. It could just mean it was a "normal" day.

2. Anxiety Looks Different on Every Person: I'm sure this is something you have heard a million different people say, but it is true. This is something important to remember. You can't treat two people who have anxiety the same way.

3. Sometimes I Just Want to Sit/Lay in Bed: and that is perfectly okay! We all have those days where we are just too tired to do anything and just want to relax. It doesn't mean that anything is wrong with us, we just want to have some time with Netflix. Our brains can be going a mile a minute so we need to have that time to slow down and process what's going on.

4. When Our Brains Fixate on One Thing, That is All We Can Think About: Trust me, this is the most annoying part. This is the part that keeps me up in bed at night. One small thing can be stuck in our mind from the day and it makes us spin out of control. It's the part that makes us think you are upset with us or that we did something wrong. This is the part I hate the most.

5. We Will Be Okay: It may not seem like it at first, but trust me, we will. It all takes time to process. But eventually, everything will be fine. It's just something we have to deal with. All in our own time.

These are the things I have been learning to cope with over the past year. It's hard to think about and process at times, but it's been getting better. I have the most amazing support system who has been with me every step of the way. Each day I am learning to trust God more with this and understand that He is using this to help bring me closer to Him. We all process this differently and this is just one way I am learning to process it.

So thank you, God, for giving me this journey and surrounding me with amazing people to life me up each and every day.