This article is talking about my experience with anxiety but also thinking that some of you might relate to it as well. Anxiety is something that a lot of people face everyday, unfortunately there are people that may not understand what people like us are going through. My hope is that people can understand what we go though, and change the stigma with anxiety, know that it is not a burden, that we are worthy of love and respect, that we shouldn't be frowned upon by society, that we do want to get help but we don't know how to ask sometimes.

I have a hard time falling asleep right away sometimes its because I have so many different thoughts racing through my head, of things I should of done, sometimes I have flashbacks of the past, things that I want to forget but I can't. It also has so many different ideas for writing and i wonder what I didn't think about any of this when I wasn't trying to fall asleep.

I also end up having nightmares sometimes, some of them resemble my fears of what might happen, failure, rejection, not achieving the dreams you want, the people you love leaving you, losing someone you love. Then when I wake up i feel a sense of relief knowing that its not real but it felt real.

Sometimes I look at my friends Facebook pages and all the announcements of them buying their first homes, having kids, getting engaged or married, getting their dream jobs, traveling the world. Sometimes I do get jealous because I wish that was me. Does it make a bad person that I want them to know what I am growing through, that I am not the same person behind the screen as I am in real life. Sometimes I hate myself for thinking those things, I don't want to be jealous, I don't wish to envy them, but its hard sometimes because I just want to be happy.

I often turn to social media looking for peoples approval, I always worry about people not liking me that I am annoying people with my presence. I fear losing people as friends, I always say something and then regret what I say thinking that i should have said something different. I worry everyday that people don't actually like me that they just put up with me.

There is hope though with the right support and the right kind of ways of coping, I can learn how to live with my anxiety without having it take over my life. I started talking to a professional, I am learning to express my emotions in a more healthier way by using writing and art.I have also taken up yoga as well.

I almost ruined so many relationships in my life because of my anxiety, now I am working to mend those relationships and right now everything is going great.

To all those out there who are dealing with anxiety right now, just know that you are not alone, you will get through this. And if anyone ever tells you different tries to belittle you please know having it is nothing to be ashamed of. If I can do it so can you!

I believe in you! Its never too late to ask for help!