I've bought the organized Lilly planner's, the sticky notes, the color coordinated binders, and the weekly white board calendars. Most of these things have gone unused after a few attempts at me trying to be organized. To-do lists are left un-crossed off and homework is rushed last minute, whether I plan out a schedule or not, it is always disrupted with one thing or another. Come Friday evening, my hair is a mess, my room is a mess, but my life somehow is put-together.

I joked one day with a friend that if you ask me to do something, I will most definitely get it done, but I'll have to take a nap first. This statement is definitely not very far from the truth and anyone that knows me knows that I really enjoy a good power nap (Are 2-3 hour naps too long to be a power nap???) and do my best work after resting for a while. Unfortunately, the problem with being a college student is that when you lay down for a nap after class and before you know it, it's 7 PM and time for dinner and then it's midnight and you've literally done everything but your homework. But, it's fine because you took a nap, so you can stay up as late as you need to. The only problem with this system though is that its a never ending cycle of napping and late night homework--almost inescapable once you're in it. Don't worry, next semester will be different you tell yourself, then next semester comes and maybe things are different for a week or two, but then the cycle hits once again and your life is filled with late night and afternoon naps.

In high school health class my junior year, we took a quiz that told us whether we had a Type A or Type B personality. My health teacher was surprised to know that I, the class president and honor roll student, am in fact a Type B person. To most people who don't actually know me I seem motivated, organized, and put-together. But, my close friends know that this is not how I actually am. My homework is generally finished last minute or early in the morning and my attention span lasts at most for 5 minutes. So, how is a "messy" person like myself an honors student involved in many different activities with leadership roles while also maintaining an off-campus job?

Honestly, I'm not actually sure how I manage to do these things. Sometimes, I'm a whirlwind of chaos and the stress makes my hands shake and my mind race. But, I also know that day by day schedules and an organized life would make me even more nervous. It's in my messy life that I find a balance between work and play and I find things that interest and excite me. It's not always easy and sometimes I do have to pull out the color coded binders and sticky notes. If it were't for the notes and reminders on my phone, I'm not sure I could continue to function as a normal human being. But, at the end of the day I always remind myself to breathe and relax, it doesn't matter if I have the paper of my life due the next day or if it's just a regular day, I know that when my alarm goes of in the morning everything will be alright. But, I'll probably press snooze a couple times first.