Having anxiety isn't a popularity norm that society makes. It's not getting nervous or over thinking a few times, it's all the time. Anxiety is when you can't go about your normal day because something isn't right. You can't pin point the issue and it gets aggravating very fast. People will say that their anxiety is rising but it's only situational. They don't know what it's like to truly have anxiety. It creeps into your life and will swallow you whole.
When everything is adding up and you don't know what to do. You are literally frozen in that moment because your heart is beating 100 miles a minute and your body is feeling tingly and you don't know how to stop it. Why can't you just flip the switch and turn it off? You have to let it run it's course.
It's a Friday night and all your friends are getting ready to go out, you're excited to have fun tonight but then you get a feeling. Why is my heart beating so fast? Why do I have a sick feeling in my stomach? An hour or so later and that feeling still hasn't gone away so what do you do? You're getting flighty almost like any minute you feel you could burst. Everything is going so fast why is this happening now? Then if you go home you're going to feel horrible because everyone is so excited to go out and have a good time, or everyone is going to try to convince you other wise because they think you're just being weird and that if you go out it'll be fine because you're going to have fun.
Crowds are hit or miss. You might be at a festival and there's just too many people around you. Is it getting hotter? Am I sweating? I need air. There's too much going on and it's freaking you out. Almost like you're in a fish bowl and people keep tapping the glass making googlely eyes at you.
Panic attacks do happen and sometimes at the worst moments. They're hard to control once they start happening it almost feels like you're having a heart attack because you can't breathe, your heart won't stop racing, your face goes numb, you can't feel anything but shock at that moment. It's hard to calm down and sometimes it takes someone to help get you calm.
People make a big deal that anxiety isn't there that it's just you freaking out over stuff but it's not. If you find that this type of thing happens multiple times in a week or a month even, figure out what to do to get it under control. See a doctor or someone and tell them what's going on. Diagnosed anxiety happens a lot more than you think. It's okay to not be okay.
Once you start to learn more about this disorder it'll be easier to control it. You'll know when something is starting to happen in enough time to stop it from getting out of control. You can really start to have a handle on this and it'll feel so good not letting it take over you.
But once you start to be able to handle this it'll really suck when you just can't. Sometimes it'll sneak up on you and you'll get that feeling. You can't get rid of it or figure out what to do about it and that'll be hard because you're going to have to step away and just do your own thing, whatever makes it better. That might mean you need to be alone and leave the party or the dinner table but others around you will understand just tell them what's going on. They might even be able to help you.
Somedays just aren't good. You wake up and it's only time till you break but breaking is okay. Once you let everything out you will feel better. You could be at work and a customer says something wrong and when your boss asks what's wrong it'll come out but don't be embarrassed, we all have those days. Explain after and they'll understand.
When you can't do particular things because it'll raise your anxiety is tough because some people don't see that as an excuse. You can't not go to class or an event because your anxiety is bad. It's not fair. Some settings just bring out your anxiety so what do we do during these moments?Anxiety isn't "cool" it messes with your everyday life and it's unexplainable. Everyone's experience is different. In the end we just need people who will understand and help us when we need it but also step back when we need to be alone. During these moments we see who are truly there for us in the end. However, we understand that this type of stuff can be exhausting to deal with. We deal with this on a daily basis so we get it if you can't take it. We don't want to pile all this on someone but we need reassurance sometimes, to make sure we aren't alone when we feel like it. It sucks that we can't do anything about this disorder. It may be situational, we might've been born with it but either way we're stuck with it so we have to just deal with it.
