I’ve always felt pressured to have a plan. In high school, people would ask me where I planned to go to college, if I planned to play a sport, and what I planned to study. I figured all those things out and answered the questions and believed my life would follow my little plan perfectly.

Then, I got to college. In my first semester, I realized how naive I was. I ended up not liking what I had planned to study. Then I felt lost because my life was not going as planned. I didn’t know what I wanted to do for a career and I felt like I needed to figure it out right then and there. It stressed me out and broke me down. I started questioning other things, too. So many aspects of my life suffered.

Finally, I started questioning why I even made those plans. God already has a plan for us that is greater than anything we could plan for ourselves. He loves us and wants the best for us. I realized it’s okay to be lost. It’s okay to not have an answer. It's okay to ask Him for guidance. I ask and ask and ask, and I haven't gotten an answer yet, but I know His timing is perfect. I know He will offer direction and correction along the way.

Since I’ve given up my "plans," I’ve felt calmer. I know that I am being taken care of and I know that He has a plan for me. When I let go, I am letting God take control and that is so comforting. He knows us better than we could ever know ourselves. Planning every little detail of our lives can cause so much stress and make us feel like we need to be doing something to reach that goal at all times. It can lead you away from Him and take your focus to things that do not matter.

So, as I continue to stumble through this life, I will continue to ask Him for His guidance. I will continue to trust in his plan, even when I feel as if I’m in the dark and I don’t have a clue as to what He is up to. I’m ready and willing for whatever He brings.