Here I am, a sophomore in college, doubting my major and my career path all in one. It's absolutely terrifying. I don't know that I'm where I should be and I have no idea where I will end up. I'm completely unable to see where I'm going to end up and the lack of control I have on this aspect of my life terrifies me. But if we're being honest, the one comforting thing about this is that I know I'm not alone.
I thought I was the only one who doubted the path they were set on. At the university I attend, freshmen start taking a few major classes during their first semester. I'm currently a sophomore taking 13 credit hours within my major every semester. While this may sound great, the truth is that I feel like it has cemented me into my major with no possibility of changing it. I'm already so far into it and would be too far behind if I were to switch. Don't get me wrong, I love my department and my classes. My professors are great and I enjoy what I'm learning. To be entirely honest, I don't know why I feel so uncertain as to whether or not I declared the right major. All I know is that the doubt has been drowning me lately while everyone else seems so confident.
My RA decided to host a Bible study this semester for the girls in our building. The topic during the study is trusting God with the future. All of the girls in the study were able to admit that they shared the same uncertainty towards their majors and the future and I realized it was a more common struggle than I thought. I was no longer alone in this struggle of uncertainty and it was no longer something I found to be an anomaly to the thought of those around me.
We all have doubts about where we're heading in life. There's a lot of confusion within choosing a path for life. Doubting is simply part of the process and you're definitely not alone if you have doubts. Just know that the Lord will guide your path and place you where you ultimately need to be. Though it sounds cliche, it's crucial to trust Him in guiding you to where you need to be and trust that everything will fall into place as it should. Hang in there. This is just a season.
