I was the loner in high school. Yeah, I had friends, but no good ones, and none that even came close to the ones I have now. High school is not easy and it's really not easy when you're the loner. Trust me, I understand how hard it is. I understand what the weekends are like and how empty you feel when you are surrounded by people, but none who knows you. The good news is that I can promise that it does get better. People do come in your life, and they are good people. They are the type of people you have always needed. They may not always make life easier, but they do make life better. Life as the loner isn't a life anyone wants to live, but sometimes we have to. That time you spend with no one is the time you spend building yourself and learning how to love yourself, so when those true friends come around you can love them more. You can show them that you know what it's like to not have faithful friends, so you will be that faithful friend. Life as the loner makes you realize how precious life is and it makes you cherish the little things more. It makes you value the things other people don't. Most of all, it makes you love more than anyone else because you've felt that emptiness more than most people, and you don't want other people to feel it either. I know, you hate to admit that you were the loner, but you can't change it. It was hard and it was miserable, or maybe it still is miserable, but I promise you that it really does get better. People really do come around and you meet people who make you feel wanted.
As time goes on, you find people and things that make you happy. You find things to invest your time and energy in. You find things that are worthwhile, things and people that make you happy. That time when you were a loner just becomes a distant memory. It will always be there but it won't be a bad memory, just a memory that is there in your mind. When life gets rough and you argue with the people you've found, you will remember the times it was just you and those arguments won't last as long. You remember all the people who were mean to you and you become grateful for arguing with your friend about who is going to wear that dress or if y'all should buy the same shoes or not. You become grateful for eating at the same place every day because you're with people you love. You realize that those late night runs to get food aren't as bad as you think they are. Life finally gives you moments, and people, to cherish.
I know it's hard now. Trust me, I was the loner too. Life gets better, though. Be patient, and when those people come, love them. When you find things to invest in, invest. Do more and be more.