Seven long endless months. The best seven months of my life. The person I was with changed me and made me a better person. I feel so madly in love that I saw my whole life in front of me. I saw myself settling down and one day having a family with the person I was with. But it all took a complete and total twist. I was not good enough. I could not make him happy. I was not enough. I thought I found my forever but I did not. I thought he was the "one".
I was so madly in love I could not see myself with anyone else. If he called me I would answer in a heart beat, he could say and do terrible things to me and I would still find a way to forgive him. I will always look past his flaws and love him. I refuse to talk down about him because I love him. He made me a better person. He made me have a reason to care.
One day soon he will realize what he lost when he has no one to talk to about his family problems. He will have no one there to listen to him cry about missing home and his friends. He will be all alone one night and it will all click that he walked away from someone that was willing to give him the world to make him happy. When that day comes, I will answer the phone and not speak. I want to hear him beg and then I will hang up the phone. It is not worth it anymore, the heartbreak and the tears. I will not lose myself over somebody.
In a couple months I will heal and I will keep smiling. I wish him nothing but success and happiness. He deserves it, he will always be someone I love. But one day, he will just be another old lover. I will always remember him but I will not wait for him to change his mind about the decision he made to leave.
If you are reading this, Drew, I hope you get everything you want out of your life. This is a goodbye, not a see you later. Thank you for the amazing seven months.
