We were like two magnets who couldn't decide whether to attract or repel.

We disappeared, reappeared, made plans to go somewhere, then lost each other, searched for each other, then found each other a few feet away.

There is no shame in being hungry for another person. There is no shame in wanting very much to spend the rest of your life with someone. I am not sitting in my room writing this article as a love drunk teenager. I am not planning on running off and getting married anytime soon either, this is simply two souls connecting for the present moment. I understand the thought of finding someone who can make you happy at my age is crazy and intense.

Actually.

I do not. I am grown. I have went through the most important years of my life practically alone, so when I find a soul that heals my scars; I will protect that with all that I have. To fear love is to fear life, and those who fear life are already three parts dead. Ever since the beginning of time man realized he couldn't go through this life alone, so why is it so wrong to want someone to walk by your side? It isn't. I've learned that everyone has an opinion, and I'm sure people are already starting to form theirs. But honestly, I am incredibly proud of myself for letting my walls down with someone. It has been years since I've let someone that close. I was a monster of isolation for so long. It was good for a while, being empty. It didn't hurt anymore. But as time went on, it was like I could hear myself from far away, begging for permission to come back. He simply led me back to myself.

It's all about the first person you want to tell the good news to. Its all about the person you want to be there when you find out the bad. It's easy to take off your clothes and have sex. People do it all the time. But opening up your soul to someone? Letting them into your spirit, thoughts fears, future, hopes, dreams... that is being naked.

Art and love are the same thing; its the process of seeing yourself in things that are not you. People may call me crazy for not wanting to feel alone anymore, go ahead. If being crazy means me being happy, I wish I went crazy years ago. Fear is used to control you, but I am not afraid. His voice calms my anxiety, the touch of his hands takes my pain away. Is this a sin? No, I believe God created male and female because he knew it's better that way. We aren't meant to be alone. Although he lives hours away, he makes me feel better than any of the people I cross paths with on any normal day. I used to have this feeling that haunted me, the feeling that I was wasting my life, that I wasn't where I was supposed to be. As soon as he jumped into my life, that feeling vanished and I can breathe again. He simply makes life easier. He pushes me to become the person I've always wanted to be.

You haven't really written poetry if you've never cried while writing it down. And you haven't really read a book until you can literally escape the depths of this word and jump into another. And you've never really been in love if you've never been let down, but still try to find it. And you really haven't hated anything until you've looked into the mirror and instead of staring, you just close your eyes because you know what you see will only haunt you further. And you haven't really been a soul if you haven't found another who thinks just like you. And you haven't really had a heart until you've been completely honest with yourself. And you haven't really been hurt until you've curled your fist and punched a hole into the into the sky, until morning quickly turns into midnight before your eyes. And you haven't really swallowed your pride until that last time you said "this is it, im done", quickly switches to "sweety, come back, I was wrong". And you haven't really grown up until you've taken a long drive and started crying because you realize this is it, this is your life. And you haven't really felt true love until you've fell on hand and knee at the altar of God. And you haven't felt what true loss feels like until that person who is gone, is closer than ever. And you haven't felt happy until you meet someone who helps you forget your past while they help create your future.

And I haven't really been myself,

until I met you.