There are many times in your life as a Christian where you will have what I like to call the "warm fuzzies." These "warm fuzzies" are the feel good, comforting feelings brought on by our awesome and loving God. In these "fuzzy" times God will seem ever present, he will be answering prayers left and right and you'll feel so connected. There will also be times in your life where God seems silent, when you cannot understand why something you've been wanting so badly just isn't working out or maybe it feels as if your life is falling apart. In these times we have to learn to trust.
We are so good about proclaiming God's goodness when we are feeling "warm fuzzies," and when God is deeply present we shout His praises. God is good all the time and we need to remember that this includes when He seems far from us. In the bible, Job's life fell apart and he lost everything, but his life was restored because he had built a foundation on a good, good father. He leaned into his faith and came out of an ugly situation praising the Lord.
My life has been all about learning to trust God lately. My job situation has been grueling for the last seven months and I have come home most nights in tears from feeling so beaten and torn down. I have been praying to find another job, any job and, you guessed it, no opportunities arose. I applied for retail, a nanny job and even when I got an interview, they often turned me down. I just didn't understand why I couldn't get a simple job and why I couldn't get out of a bad situation. God seemed silent on the matter, but He had bigger plans.
After being turned down once again for a job I was over qualified for I was feeling discouraged, but went online to look for more openings. I stumbled across an opening that was perfect. This job opening was part time and it was even in my field of study. I applied not expecting much because I hadn't even been able to land a retail job much less a job in my field. Then two weeks later I was called in for an interview. Still my hopes weren't high, but I began to pray.
In my prayers I asked God to teach me to trust Him. It's hard for me to relinquish control and all I had been doing when applying for other jobs was trying to control my situation instead of looking to the plans God had for my life. In my prayers I told God that even though I struggled to do it, I would trust this job to Him. I also asked that if this is what he wanted that things would just fit right. Guess what? They did.
Not only is this job going to allow me to leave my current miserable job, it pays more than I was expecting and even will give me the same days off as my boyfriend, something I hadn't even thought to ask for. This new job will allow me more time to do the things I love and even more time to visit home this summer.
This all happened because I trusted in the Lord. I trusted that he wasn't silent for no reason and that he had something for me to learn. I relinquished control and surrendered the situation to him and my stress was gone. I knew going into that interview that if it was right, it would happen and God blessed me with so much more than I had asked for. Trusting in his plans is hard but friends, it's worth it. He knows what he's doing so much more than we do.
So learn to trust in him, lean on him when life falls apart just like Job did. Know that he wants what's best for you and he will give it to you at just the right time. If it feels like your prayers just aren't being answered, trust that he may have something better planned for you than what you are asking for. He knows your deepest desires and he will provide. He's got this.
"Trust in the Lord and he will give you your heart's desires." Psalm 37:4
