“What do you want to be when you grow up?” We’ve all been asked this question before, and for some of us it’s simple. From an early age some people know exactly what they want to do. They’ve always known they wanted to be an astronaut or doctor, and they have their whole life planned accordingly.

For me it was a completely different story. I thought I wanted to be a professional pony rider or an ice cream truck lady, until I found out that I’m allergic to horses and listening to the ice cream song all day would actually be hell. So when I was seriously asked this question as a young adult, I had no clue. I was still figuring it out, I would say, and then quickly change the conversation. Because for me, this question was terrifying. Here I was having to determine what I did with the next 40 years of my life, and I had no clue. Meanwhile all of the people around me seemed to have every step planned out for the next five years. I felt so lost, and I cried and prayed to Jesus to show me what he wanted me to do with my life. I didn’t understand why my path wasn’t as clear as others.

However, I slowly came to realize that He was showing me the way He wants me to lead my life. I would not be in the place I am today if God didn’t want me to be there. God’s plan is not simple and clean, it is going to be hard and a little messy. I am going to go through obstacles and find myself at walls that I don’t think I can make over. But, I am going to make it over, and become a better and stronger person because of it. I may not have the next five years of my life planned out, but isn’t that kind of beautiful? I am living in God’s plan every day and only He knows where He is going to lead me next. I am writing my story every day, and I can’t wait to see where He takes me next.