You're the girl who loves too hard, gives too much, everyone's shoulder to cry on and the girl who everyone calls to help them but then you realize you don't have too many people that will do the same for you. It's common to feel guilty for being the way you are and for not being able to help someone who may need your help. People are constantly telling you you're too naive, or you're too emotional or to care less, but we all know it is not that easy. How hard is it to stop something that is engraved into who we are?
Growing up, I was not the emotional type. In fact, I was far from emotional. I didn't cry for anything at all. What makes this strange is that my mom is a very emotional person, and as I grew up and experienced death for the first time, injuries, and other life tragedies, she became concerned as I still managed to remain almost "heartless" and didn't cry enough. This changed as I grew older I began to get emotional over the smallest things, especially when I got into my first relationship and I realized how much I love "love" and how hard I love. All I wanted was to love someone and be loved strongly in return. I am a natural-born lover, I care for everything and everyone and I quickly realized that I care too hard, and some people don't understand that. I don't know how many times I've heard that I'm way too emotional and I need to take a few steps back and not think so much. It caused a lot of problems in my past relationship as well as in friendships. I take so much to heart and it affects me when I treat people a certain way, and yet they can't treat me the same way. As soon as I realized that sometimes having a big heart and being so open does not always work, I decided it was time for a balance and to help other girls who have felt the way I have.
If you are like me, I want you all to know that it is okay to have a big heart, it is okay to open your hearts and love and care with all that you have. We take the risk of having our heart abused, torn and broken but we also take the chance of having the ability to be cherished, admired and loved for the person we are. It is okay to look out for other people constantly and it is okay to wear your heart on your sleeve. It may feel terrible right now and you may hate the fact that you are this way, but one day it will all be worthwhile. You will find the happiness and the love that you deserve, even though it may seem like you won't. Continue to give, continue to help, continue to trust and continue to love, it will be appreciated and returned one day.
If you know a girl like this, please do not take advantage of her and understand that it is not that she is too emotional, she just cares deeply for you and has only your best intentions on her mind. Do not try to change her because you'll just make her feel guilty for being the way she is. Love her for her big heart and make sure to appreciate her in every way, and she will love you harder than you have ever known.
