Breakups suck but nothing broke me down like when you abandoned me. I had dedicated my time to you. I wanted to talk to you all day. I wanted to spend my weekends with you. And you let me. You let me open up to you. I let you into the deep parts of my life and you comforted me. You told me you would never let anything happen to me. You made me believe I had your protection. You made me believe that you cared about me enough to stick by my side. And then you made me believe that I was worthless.

And when I think about you, I can feel the emptiness that you poured into me. You chose, all on your own, to place yourself into my life during such a crucial point. You knew what I was going through and allowed yourself to be my shoulder to cry on. I trusted you to keep my secrets. I trusted you to be my guide. But you took my hand and led me through until the one day you decided you were done with me. You dropped my hand and ran off with no warning. You abandoned me.

I spent my time hoping you would come back. Only hours before you left you told me you wouldn’t leave. You looked me in the eyes and lied to me. I spent months texting you, messaging you, hoping you would reply. I made excuses up to myself about why you were too busy to talk to me. I let your words dance through my head and convinced myself that if you really didn’t want me, you would tell me. But then you taught me that I was not worth an explanation. You taught me that I was not worth your words.

You left me hanging, hoping you would come back just like you promised I would. And I blame myself for being so blind. I allowed someone to treat me that way. You taught me a valuable lesson. Every day that I waited for you to come back or that you read my messages and didn’t reply, it was my fault for getting my hopes up. I didn’t understand that sometimes, people will abandon you. Even when I thought that you must have been too good for a person like me. Even when I thought my actions deserved abandonment, it was never me.

I waited for an explanation. I waited for you to tell me why I didn’t deserve just a sentence from you. But as I grew I learned that nothing was my fault. I did what I thought was right to keep you around and you didn’t think that was enough. And I understand. You showed me that not everyone was meant to be together. You taught me that no matter how hard I tried, I had to let you go. I learned that it had nothing to do with my worth as a person. I was good enough, you just didn’t agree. You kissed me and left my house that morning with no intention of speaking to me ever again. I had no warning. Just a promise you would be there. A promise you broke.

And you became my hardest lesson. A lesson that taught me even the nicest of people will lie to you. That sometimes you will waste your breath on people who don’t deserve it. And after all this time, I hope you know what you did. I was never too worthless of a person to deserve abandonment. You were just never meant to be the person that deserved me. You didn’t see the potential in me. And I’m sorry it took until you truly hurt me to realize I was not the problem. But at the same time, I’m happy you gave me up. I’m happy I was able to have the chance to find someone else that actually appreciates all that I can give.