This started out to be a letter to people who try their hardest to have their lives together and stress out over the smallest things, in a way it was forming to be a letter to myself. But I stopped and thought about something my roommates had discussed one day when I wasn't home.
They were all sitting on the couch, talking about the semester ahead. I've always been the type of girl who had a plan and always had to stick to the plan or I stress out and get anxious. When things don't go my way, it's a road for disaster. But one of my roommates had pointed out that how I feel every day, freaking out about how I need to get my life together, is how she felt on the inside but just couldn't express how she felt like I passionately did when I have my constant breakdowns.
So I decided to write a letter to those people, to the people who have a hard time expressing their emotions. It's actually kind of funny because I used to keep everything so bottled up it took two years for me to release everything I had kept to myself. After that, I just started to express my emotions more vocally and even on social media.
But, that's not really the point of this article/letter/random things I'm just writing. I guess what my point is actually slowly starting to get to is that nothing is scarier than admitting you're not okay or that you're having a hard time expressing your emotions. Like that is probably one of the hardest things to do. I've been there. Sometimes it's still hard for me to express certain emotions and sometimes maybe I over express them.
It's okay. Don't feel like you're weird or not normal for not expressing how you feel or if you over express how you feel. Humans come in different shapes, forms, mind sets, everything. We are all wired differently and sometimes not being able to express or even over express is OKAY.
But I'm going to break this down a little bit.
Starting off with people who can't express their emotions. You need to be reminded that there will always be someone there for you with open ears, ready to let you pour every ounce of emotion you have bottled in, out. But take your time. Go on your own terms. Letting out a simple scream works too. Just when you're ready know that you're not alone.
As for the people who over express. You need to be reminded that it's okay to express every day that you don't have your life together. I do it. And someone always listens. I could want to scream from the top of my lungs and someone would sit right there and listen to me scream. Rant for seconds, minutes, hours. Go on your own terms. Just remember, you're not alone.
You see, the people who can't express their feelings are just like the people who over express. Nobody is alone. We are all different. We all do things on our own terms because we get that right. Just keep reminding yourself that it gets better and that, once again, YOU'RE NOT ALONE.
