I can only hope that you're up there telling everyone how proud you are of me. I strive to be someone that you always imagined I'd be, because you always saw my potential. I'm sure you've shaken your head one too many times at some decisions I've made, but I hope that the majority of the time that I've made you smile.

I wonder all the time what life would be like if you were still here. I think about how different some events would've been if you were right next to me. Even though I know that you're there in spirit and that brings me comfort, I selfishly want you physically with me. It's not fair that you left so early.

I know you'd hate it, but I still cry for you. The pain is too much to bear sometimes. I know it's selfish of me, considering you're in the most beautiful place of them all, but my world is a little less beautiful without you here. I can't help but want you here. There's a piece of me missing, and only you can patch that hole.

I talk about you to others as often as I can. I forget you're gone sometimes because I speak of you so much. It's like you're still here. What I would give to be making new memories with you. I can only imagine the adventures we'd go on and what stories we'd have to tell afterwards.

I miss you continuously. I miss you so much sometimes that my heart aches. I've felt alone more often than not, and what I would've given to have you give me hug in those moments and say, "Everything's going to be alright." You knew the right things to say at the right time, and that, along with a million other things, are why I am so thankful you were placed in my life from the beginning.

I don't remember your voice sometimes, and that makes me hurt. It's been so long since I've heard you laugh or tell me that you love me. I remember a multitude of things you said to me, but it feels like it's been an eternity since I heard them, and your voice has almost faded from my memory. I hate that. I wish I would've recorded every word you said to me while you were still here so I could listen to them every day. I refuse to let all of you fade completely. I promise that will never happen. I will keep your memory alive for as long as I live.

You truly were a gift from God. I am incredibly lucky that you were a part of my life. Even though I would wish for a thousand more years on Earth with you, I wouldn't trade the times we spent together for anything. You are so special and unforgettable. I will continue to work to be someone that you can be proud of. I keep you in mind in all my decisions I make, because even though I can't hear you, I can imagine what'd you'd say to me. I love you, and I miss you more than I can put into words.